Depressed

Depressed ako ulit. I'm not really sure kung bakit pero depressed ako. I don't feel good. Siguro sa sobrang changes na nangyayari ngayon nahihirapan akong mag cope up. First of all, I'm on diet. Minsan di na ako kumakain, minsan naman napapasobra. Pero the good thing is, constant ang weight loss ko. Yun nga lang pa isa isang lbs lang. Pero better than nothing right? Secondly, siguro affected ako masyado sa mga changes na nangyayari sa classroom. Nawala ang 3 sa ka-group ko at medyo nahirapan ako mag adjust kasi nawala sila. They used to be good buddies. They were the people i talk to most of the time. Tapos may mga ka-group pa talaga na walang kwenta. Halata masyadong di nila ako gustong kasama. Ako ay sensitive kaya affected ako agad pag mga ganyan. Thirdly, naiinis ako sa isang tao sa classroom. Nung nalaman ko na siya pala yung may gusto kay Johanna, nag selos ako bigla. Nag selos ako kasi clown siya ng klase while I'm a no one. Nagselos ako kasi kakampi nya most people sa classroom while I only have a few. Naiirita na rin ako sa kanya. Sige na lang joke joke kahit wala na sa lugar. Sobrang papansin na. Ewan ko ba bakit affected ako bigla habang dati wala lang naman sa akin yun. Fourthly, siguro naging distant ako sa mga kaklase ko. Di ko na alam pano mag approach sa mga kasama ko everyday. Minsan iniisip ko, sana duty na lang lagi. Wala nang lecture. I'd rather be with my group mates than the whole class. Lastly, di ko na alam kung bakit humihina na ako sa klase. I used to be really good. I used to really have a good memory on certain things. Right now. I dunno. I can't answer a simple question anymore. Kanina, naiirita din ako kasi si Miko, si Luis, ug si Caranay na lagn sige'g answer sa mga questions ni maam. tapos ako nag tanga lang. I know it's not a competition but I can't help it. I always see them as competitions. Dati kasi ako din sige answer sa questions. Ngaun di na ako makasagot. Lagi akong mental block. Waaaaa!! tsaka dati, si Caranay. Di siya annoying, di siya competition. Pero ngaun na nalaman ko na may gusto siya kay Jo tapos suportado ng mga kasama nyang mga unggoy, naiirita ako pag anjan siya. Grabe ka seloso noh?
Hahai. Marami na din kasing distractions lately. I need another week of break. I need to pick up some pieces na naiwan ko somewhere.

Siguro I just think too much. And I just let everything, even the unnecessary ones, sink in to me. Sana maka cope up lang ako bigla. Rest lang siguro. Stressful na masyado ang life ko. Waaaaa!! Naiingit na rin ako kasi ang ibang friends ko makaka-graduate na. Dapat kasali ako pero hindi kasi kailangan ko bumalik. Tae.
Sige hanggang dito na lang.

First Day of Class

I wasn't so excited about it. Especially nung nagkagulo na kami about the schedule. The whole class weren't so sure where we should be. The night before, I made a note in Facebook and tagged some classmates to clarify whether or not tama ang gi post ko. It was like a debate. A funny debate. Hahaha! We decided we all go to the grade school campus and wait there for any information whether we should go to the college or stay at the grade school.

Today, I arrived a little late than expected. Abby was the first one there and greeted me with, "Kyle! Sa college daw tau!" Timing, tiningnan ko cellphone ko at may SMS ako galing kay Quibs saying, "Oy bai, naka post diri sa division na group 2 ka. So sa grade skul daw ana si ma'am ocampo." So medyo assured na si Abby na ganun. We stayed sa grade school na lang. Tapos dumating na si Luis tapos sunod-sunod na. Ang pangit lang dun kasi kami lang ang group na andun. Far away sa mga classmates namin kasi classmates namin nasa college lahat. We waited an hour for a CI. We assumed that those C.I.'s arriving are our C.I.'s. Turned out it was Ma'am Baniel. She called Abby on the phone asking us if we prefer to go to college or we stay there and wait for her. We voted to just go to the college. When we got there, sinali na kami sa class ni Ma'am David. Sila ni Ma'am Baniel ang mag le-lecture sa amin along with Section F. It was a fun lecture with them. Hahaha!

Anyway, other than the lecture, I'm really happy today. What was a very pretty bad night of thinking what schedule to follow, the day turned out really cool. The group was more intimate than before. LMAO. I guess it's because konti na lang kami. It's sad thinking na our ex-group mates wala na sa amin. pero looking on the brighter side, happy ako kasi.... happy lang. :D Sayang lang talaga yung iPhone kasi nabenta na sa price na di ko gusto. tsk. Pero sige lang. hanap tau ng bagong seller. :D

Officially Enrolled!

After 3 days of waiting, lining...and more waiting, I'm finally enrolled. Supposedly dapat kahapon pa ako tapos, but because of procrastination di ako naka-enroll kahapon. We watched a movie remember?... or did i share that to you? Well, that's another story.

Kanina, I woke up late. When I got to school, a lot of people were already waiting for their turn sa may finance office. Kumuha na ako agad ng priority number. To my surprise, number 483. Medyo matagal tagal. Di na nga nakapag lunch sa kahihintay. Pero since patient ako sa paghihintay. Umabot din sa 483 at nakapag enroll ako. Pero di pa ako certified 2nd sem student coz I didn't have my ID validated. To many people were lining and waiting for 2 hrs was enough for the day. I decided to go home after paying. Grabbed a cup of Fit n' Right fruit snacks and then went home. I'll have my ID validated on the 4th.

As of now, I'm excited to go home to San Fran for the 'Undas'.

Hello's and Goodbye's

Catchy title. I know. Just thought of it all of a sudden. Actually it's about the upcoming second semester of the school year. Let's start with the GOODBYE'S. It was a big shock for all of us. The once united and happy section of 3E is now not so happy anymore. 8 of our classmates were transferred to another section because of subject time conflicts. All 8 of them together in another section. I feel really sad because 3 of the 8 were my group mates. Johanna, Mika and Amir. Oh. I'm gonna miss those guys, especially Joh. Malapit na birthday nya and i had a plan but i don't think i'll be able to execute it since I'm on the Monday group and she's on the Thursday group. Well to top that, Bonita's is now part of Group 1. It's not gonna be same as before. It's not going to be fun anymore :(. Anyway, i guess let's stop talking about it. Let's go to the HELLOS.

Again, for the 4th year in college, Miko and I are going to be classmates again. Medyo matagal na pinagsamahan namin kasi since 1st year college pa kami. Then 2nd year good buddies. Tapos still on the same section during our pseudo-3rd year moment and now on our 3rd year. Well, I'm glad a friend is joining the gang. I'm hoping that he's gonna like the class.

Another one returning from a long absence. Trina. Trina and I are good friends since 1st year summer class. She stopped studying when something happened during her 3rd year. Now she's back and she's on my section. I'm not really sure if I'd be glad or be disappointed. Know why? Because Kristina should have been on my group until Trina told me she'd be on my section. So Trina is replacing Tina. Well, whatever. I guess I just have to accept the fact that she's gonna be on my group and Tina won't.

Proud Much?

Click the picture above to see it in full

Let's just say I'm a little proud that I passed first semester. Here are my grades from Prelims to Finals. Pre-finals and Finals are not complete. The school hasn't posted them yet on the net. I got my grades from the school website; http://www.addu.edu.ph/. When logging in to the website, you really have to put the 3 "w"'s for it to work.

Anyway, as you can see, my grades on NCM both lec and RLE are high on prelims and midterms. The main explanation is i'm smart and i'm good + we were blessed to have very cool, very kind, very motherly clinical instructors who gives us grades that we really deserve. Unfortunately, sa pre-finals, mababa ang grades ko. Lumagpag ako sa NCM lecture because of the final exam. 41/100 lang ata ang kuha ko. Kahit na mataas ako sa compre 82/110, di pa rin ako nahila at bumaba ako ng ilang points. From 81 sa midterms naging 75 na lng ako sa final grade. Pero thankful ako kasi pasado pa rin kahit na bumaba. I'll make sure next sem i'll do better than 75.

For my philo. Prelims, I got 74. Bagsak. Pero on midterms, bumawi ako at nakakuha ako ng 81. Thanks to the quizzes na binawi ko. Pati sa pre-fi na grade ko 80. mataas pa rin. so OK na talag sa akin ang 78 sa final grade talaga. Kanina when i was waiting to see my grades akala ko talaga bagsak ako.. whew! buti na lang pasado. hehe! thankful... I guess mataas grade ko sa bring home exam. *fingers crossed*

Anyway, until the end of next sem! I'll do good next sem to share to you a good grade! :P

2nd Highest sa CHN Grades

Was suppose to write something emo again when i remembered the grades Maam Perucho sent me this afternoon. No emo for now. Maybe the next post. *wink*

So nagkita kami kanina nila Maam Perucho after our Philo period. Gi-dismiss kami ni sir earlier than expected coz he was attending a meeting. Thankful everybody. Haha! We talked to maam, dami pa namin napagusapan before we got to the grades. Nag labas lang din siya sa classroom nila para sa amin. Mahal talaga ni maam group namin. So ayun, nag greet ako kay maam ng happy birthday again. tapos nag funny remarks siya. tawa kami. tapos yun. binigay sa akin ang grades namin. :D

Grades namin on descending order:

(initials na lang. besides, di naman lahat kilala kung sino yan sila)

M.C. -88.42

ME - 88.04

L.L. - 87.92

A.D. - 87.62

D.E. - 87.28

C.D. - 86.67

J.G. -86.52

R.G. - 86.48

A.G. - 85.39

A.L. - 84.80

Yan na grades namin. Kahit second lang pala ako. maka proud pa rin. :D

Kala ko nga kanina ako highest pero sige lang. at least.

CULMINATION sa COMMUNITY, Bad day for me

Hahaha! For 5 days, gi-expose mi sa community. Ang amo gi panghimo didto kay mag interview ug mga pamilya, or in other words, nagsamok samok. 6 days unta ang among duty, unya unsaon ta man nga sa unang adlaw, wa'y nahitabo sa duty kay wala mi gi dawat sa una nga community nga among gi adtuan so nahimong 5 days na lang. Sa 4 days, kailangan namo ma-interview ang mga pamilya para makakuha ug mga information nga needed sa among mga requirements. And the last day is allotted for a culmination activity for the people. More like, consolation for the families we disturbed. Hahaha!

OK OK. So let me start relating to you my bad day. Oh yes. It was a bad day for me for a lot of reasons. And I don't think I'll be able to share all the reasons. Well, anyway, just listen to my litany. That morning, I woke up late. Around 5:30am. Yes. 5:30am, during a duty day is late for me. I live a few kilometers away from school. It takes me an hour to get ready and another hour to travel. I didn't take my breakfast and i rode a taxi. Well, maybe i should have started the night before. The reason why i was late. So the night before, i was compiling our case study. The whole night i stayed because i still need to wait for other people to send me their parts. I finished compiling at exactly 12am. Nakatulog ako mga 1:30am na. Kasi once i get so tired, nahihirapan akong matulog. So yun. Kulang na naman ako sa tulog. i usually complete my 8hours of sleep. Isa pa nun, because of the CP, di ko napa-print on time ang aking anecdotal report. Hahai. Minamalas nga naman.

Ok. Balik na tayo sa bad day. Ewan ko kung san siya nag start. Ewan ko. Feeling ko kasi na crush ang heart ko. Hahaha! Hindi ko din alam ang reason. Basta, bigla akong na-depressed nung araw na yun. Iba talaga ang feeling. Ni-alsa pa jud ko ug mga bangko nga astang bug-ata, nabasa ug singot akong likod. Uncomfortable kaau akong feeling. And another thing, once na de-depress ako, I feel like people don't care about me anymore, especially yung people na special sa a. Kaya medyo nalulugmok talaga ako. As in nawawala ako sa mood on everything. Di ko kinausap mga ka-group ko. Di ko sila maxado pinapansin. Pag dating sa site, naghanap ako ng security blanket ko. I went and mingle with the other groups.

Buti na lang i was able to compose myself during the culmination. ako baya nag emcee. Haha! yep. First time ko mag emcee. Feeling ko i did great. Oh yeah. i did great! After nung culmination, depressed pa rin ako. ah bahala na. hahaha!

basta yung culmination sa community successful. nalingaw man lahat. even me na super depressed nalingaw. though there were bored moments. The rest of the day after the culmination, nag chill na lang kami.

LOST COMMUNITY

Maski sa community, kailangan naa'y picture

para complete ang experience

Hahahaha! Today is a funny day. Today was, well supposed to be, our first 3rd year community duty. We were assigned, according to our clinical instructors, at Catalunan Pequeno. We were told to wait at Roxas gate at 7:30am and we will leave at 8am.

8am came. We left the school and went to our destination. First stop was at Puan. I have no idea where or what name of that place in Puan we stopped. All I'm certain is it's near the entrance. We stayed there for like 30-45 mins. Some were taking their breakfast there (Burger, Chips, Junks) and Some (including me) stayed inside the jeep. It was too hot to go outside the jeep. After Puan, next stop was a public school in Catalunan Pequeno. It was the Catalunan Pequeno National High School (or something like that). We took a break there. About 45 mins I think. At 11, we proceeded to our supposed respective communities, but when we got there, there were no Purok leaders present (or maybe nagtatago because they don't wanna see nurses anymore. Especially student nurses. hahaha!) REJECTED mi sa COMMUNITY!

Since there were no purok leaders, we went to the public health center.

Feeling ko rejected na sad mi. We were instructed to take our lunch na lang. sa jeep!

Sila kumain. ako hindi. Can't eat in conditions such as nakaupo ka lang sa luob ng jeep. No no no thanks. Siguro kung outing yun na papunta sa beach OK pa sa akin kumain. pero yun hindi. DUTY un eh!! DUTY!!!!! Abog pa jud kaau. Hala! Sige. Siguro 10mins after nila sumubo ng first bite nila, Sir Linaw announced na we're going back to school to have our return demo na lang. Hahahaha! REJECTED jud mi sa COMMUNITY!!! COMMUNITY LOST!

Feel namo nag joy ride lang mi sa mintal. Gi pagasto lang ug 70php.

So let's start again:

SCHOOL

PUAN

CATALUNAN PEQUENO NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL

SUPPOSED COMMUNITY

HEALTH CENTER

SCHOOL

Pag dating sa school, break na naman. LUNCH BREAK. I didn't eat my lunch na lang kasi nakakawalang gana. Ang dumi ko na. Lagkit ng feeling. Feel ko ang baho ko. Malas ko pa talaga kasi nung nasa Puan pa lang kami, i stepped on my hanky. kaya wala akong hanky. Nag tiis ako sa pakamay kamay lang ng pagpunas sa aking malalaking pawis. Nung 1:30pm na. Nag RD na kami until 4pm. I got the lowest score from Maam Perucho. pero OK lang coz still. mataas pa rin na lowest score yun. :D

I should have answered well dun sa questions nya. bushet!! hahaha! :D

eto oh. mga pictures namin sa loob ng jeep. enjoy!

Case Presentation

This is it. Today was the day to defend our case study: Hirschprung's Disease.

As i've said in my previous post, i did the powerpoint for the presentation. Well, i did most of it. Though Johanna made the first few slides.

Anyway, this morning, sobra ka-kulba. La ko nag expect nga makulbaan ko kay feel pud gud daw nako nga kabalo na ko sa akong report. pero SHIT!

Katong 5minutes almost na lang medyo nanggawas ang mga nerves nako kay basin di namo matarong among case presentation kay basin makalimot mi. Lucky we have Maam Apple as our panelist so medyo di kaau terror.

Si Luis una nag report kay iya man ang acknowledgement ug ang introduction. Apil na ang mga patient's data. then sunod sunod na. Ako nag report sa genogram as request by Abby coz she was still trying to figure out the doctor's order. So nung first parts, medyo smooth sailing ang presentation because everyone was still in a very good mood. Morning pa kasi so everyone's not stressed pa. Pero nung medyo hapon na. siguro after lunch, maam apple medyo cranky na siya. Malas pa kasi si Abby ang tinamaan. Sa doctor's order. Hahai. Speaking of, diba in my last post sinabi ko i stayed the whole night for the freakin' powerpoint? Medyo natagalan ako kasi sa doctor's order ang haba. Then dun kanina sa presentation, shet! yung JULY lang ang pina report!!!!!!!! sayang effort ko.

so ayun, conclusion is. madami kaming mali sa CP namin. pero we still got good grades.

i got the highest and i'm proud of it. 95.8%

Napansin ko lang. Ako, Luis and Amir naka line of 9 sa grading sa reporting while the girls only got line of 8. Hmmmm.... Crush siguro kami ni maam. hahaha! :D

So after the CP, we decided we go to PICOBELLO.

At last, nangyari na din ang plinano namin. Kasi plano dapat yan nung Thursday eh medyo cranky ang mga tao so di na lang tinuloy. It was really fun. haha!

bonding moments with groupmates. the first bonding moments with groupmates.

hoping for more i guess.

PICTURES FROM TODAY

Above Pics: Pizza; Abby with Pizza

Below Pics: Bonita and Rikka with Pizza ; Johanna and DD

Wala'y pichurs mi ni Leh kay naulaw si Leh magpapichur tapos ako man ang photographer so sa likod sa camera lang jud ko. hahaha

Torture sa Powerpoint

Whew! A few days ago, nag volunteer ko together with Johanna to make the powerpoint for the CP. I was thinking it would be easy. But no oh no. Yesterday, Friday, July 25, 2009, we met up at gazeebo ateneo. We were suppose to discuss about the case presentation but of course as usual, it didn't happen. Instead, we were just talking, having fun, and not really paying attention to the CP. Besides, di naman din lahat nag punta so what's the use. So anyway, after lunch, naiwan kami ni Joh kasama si DD para gumawa ng powerpoint. Joh started the powerpoint then i volunteered to finish it.

At around 4:30pm, we decided to call it a day. Nagsiuwian na kami kasi sobrang pagod na ako. Feeling ko sobrang himbing ng tulog ko sa jeep. Kasi the jeepney ride took almost an hour and a half bago nakarating sa village na tinitirahan ko. Badtrip pa talaga coz it rained so hard. I was worried na baka mabasa ang "BAGO" kong laptop. hahaha! Sorry. proud sa bagong laptop. mawawala lang din pagkaproud ko soon. so wag na kau mag alala. Back to the topic, nung pagdating ko ng bahay ginawa ko na naman ang powerpoint. From that point on, na feel ko na ang sobrang pagod at stress. I had chills. Sobrang lamig! I almost got a fever. yeah. almost lang. sayang. I did the powerpoint till around 2am. Since I can't go on anymore, i decided to call it a night and set my cellphone's alarm to 4am to do the powerpoint again.

As planned, my phone rang at 4am. I was reluctant to wake up pero i remembered that i still have to finish the powerpoint for today's case defense. the doctor's order took almost all my time. sobrang haba ng doctor's order. tapos may NCP pa and all.

at around 5:30, i decided to quit and get ready for the day. Pumunta na ako ng school at around 6:30 para tapusin na ang powerpoint. and then...... NEXT BLOG ENTRY!!!!! :D

Lesson Learned:

Basta, next time, yoko na mag volunteer na gumawa ng Powerpoint. ayoko na makafeel ng sobrang pagod dahil lang jan. I will let my other groupmates work.

MY LAPTOP

Finally! I got my laptop today. I've been wanting one since i started college. Laptop is an essential gadget for nursing students and student nurses a like. We use the laptop for projects, case presentations, research and almost anything else.

My laptop is a HP Compaq Presario CQ40-336TU. It's not really what I wanted coz I want the HP Pavillion. Pero since eto lang makayanan ng budget namin. I'm satisfied. It's nice. It doesn't have the same softwares as those of an ACER kasi wala yung mga digital clocks, side notes and stuff. But it has a webcam, 250GB memory, 1GB RAM, Intel Dual Core, a built-in card reader, 3 USB ports, DVD player. hahai.

Pero wala siya MICROSOFT OFFICE 2007. Actually meron siya pero trial lang. only for 60days.

I need to have it installed yung long lasting. hahaha! Well, i haven't explored much sa aking laptop. naninibago pa ako sa fact na it's mine na talaga. ahihihi.

di na ako mahirapan during projects and stuff. all i need now is a 3gig USB and an Apple I-Touch!