Whew! Dieting is so not fun. and exercising. but i have no choice but to do these things. I need a change in my life. and it has to start with my weight. I'd be miserable for the rest of my life if i don't lose down some weight. a lot of guys out there did it and succeeded. so should i. i just need more discipline and control. Especially on my cravings. Once i see good food on the table, there's no stopping me. I hate it. I can't resist. That's why i need to control. I need resistance. Experts says that weight loss is effective if we avoid placed with food. I guess they're right because when you're on a place with so much food, you just can't resist trying those. Bit by bit then plate by plate. It sucks.

I really need a new life. I hate being miserable all the time. I hate being rejected. I hate feeling ridiculed by other people because of how i look. Right now, i need someone to help me. be my buddy. coz by next week, i'll be hitting the gym again. And this time for good. This will be the transition phase of my life. I just hope i won't feel awkward with those people there. Hahaha!!
Besides the gym, i've been doing my own exercises here at home. I do jump ropes, decline push ups, improvised weight lifting. lol. Can you believe i used a case of powerade as weight. lol. i tried decline bench press and to tell you honestly, never felt the effect. my arm didn't hurt. lmao. i guess i did it wrong. that's why i can't wait to go to the gym and be taught by the instructors.

Well, anyway, wish me luck. I'll be going on a trip after my duty tomorrow afternoon. I'll be taking off on Tuesday!