Where in the world should i place myself?

Kung lumalayo ako, the more na naga long ako na makasama siya.
The more naman na lumalapit ako, nasasaktan ako. So whatever i do. I still get hurt.
Pano na lang? Yoko na. Ang sarap na mag quit sa life. Pero sabi nga nila, think positive wag aayaw.
Hahai..
Di ko na alam san ilulugar sarili ko.
Gusto ko kalimutan ang feelings pero hindi ko magawa. Too easy to say... So hard to do.
Hahai... Araw-araw mo ba namang kasama..
Sabi nila, it's my choice daw to be happy or to be sad.
Talaga? Bakit? Gusto ko ba nararamdaman ko? Di naman ah. So how is it my choice?
It try stuff to avoid it pero is it my fault hindi siya mapigilan.
Oh yes. I guess I'm that person who acts immediately on impulse. Kaya siguro no matter what i do, kahit i try my hardest to try to forget what i feel, hindi pwede. coz my mind (and in this case including the heart) is actually acting on impulse. ain't love suppose to be like that. You don't have to think about it.
If it's GO then GO! hahai...

Ka complicated sa life. I wish God never invented such feelings.
pero kung ganun na din, siguro ka-boring na ng world... Waaaa! Dami ko na sinasabi just to have an excuse.