From Zero to Hero

I Witthdraw

2009-11-19T09:22:00.001-08:00

OK. My previous post talks about Atheism and how i am an atheist. Well now, I withdraw my support to atheism. From now on, I'm back to believing in God. I guess my faith just went back to me. LOL. I know I'm not supposed to switch side back and forth. But this is final. I guess we really need God in our lives. I guess for support. I love God. AMEN!

Atheism

2009-11-13T09:25:00.000-08:00

ATHEISM

Last Thursday at my Philosophy of Religion class, we tackled about Atheism. Our first topic for the preliminaries period. Our professor asked us to write our views about atheism related to the article given to us to read. The article was about modern christians being Atheists before really believing in God.

First Question:

Explain the meaning of the statement: "God is intellectually superfluous"

Why did Atheist come up with this view?

Would You Agree?

Second Question:

Explain the meaning of the statement: "God is emotionally dispensable"

Why did Atheist come up with this view?

Would You Agree?

Before answering those questions, let me tell you first about me and my side on religious views. I'm born Christian. Catholic to be exact. One of the strongest faith in the whole world. As Catholics we are required to believe what the priests preach and what the bible tells us. That's the very basis of our faith, our guide, "the right way" in the fulfillment of God's will. But why do i still have questions? Why am i still not sure of my faith? Why do i question the existence of God?

I've known the word atheism in high school where they teach Christian Living Education. Before, I never really believed in Atheism because I am afraid that God might punish me for it because the priests said so. I was naive, I know. Until I quite understand what it really is. A few months ago, I was exposed in a forum of Atheists. Believe it or not it was a forum on a gaming website. But let me tell you, it might be a gaming website, but some people there talk sense. After being exposed to a lot of things I before didn't believed in, I started questioning my faith. Is there really a God? If there is, why don't we see it? Why don't we feel it? These are just some of the questions i keep asking. It's been 2 months now since I last went to church. I don't know. I just don't have the drive to go to church anymore. And it's been days since I did the sign of the cross.

Anyway, going back to topic and to answer the questions above. God is intellectually superfluous. Superfluous means unnecessary. Why is God intellectually unnecessary? For some circumstances, people don't need God anymore on matters affecting their lives. For example a student. A student doesn't need God to pass his exams. He only needs to study. Simple logic: If you don't study, you fail. If you study, you pass. There is no hocus pocus to pass a subject. So therefore, God is irrelevant. We do this on our everyday living. Well at least I do. Most of the time.

To answer the following question, why did Atheist came up with this view? I think it's because some of their questions were answered not by religion/God but by some other means. Science is one. As the world progress, men's intellect evolves leading to discovering new things thus the progress of technologies. With this technology, it helps in looking for unanswered questions. Religions never answers questions. They only say, "God is the answer". For a practical human being, God is not the answer. Action is the answer. And if people rely on "God must be the answer", it will make people intellectually lazy because when something is unanswered they would just say, "God must be the answer" and no more research will be done to explain things.

Do I agree with this? Partly yes. I agree because everyday we

seldom remember God in our daily routine. If we are not reminded of it, we don't say "GOD". Sometimes, we are just forced into submitting ourselves into it because we don't want other people thinking of something else.

But my professor said, Science doesn't answer all questions, like personal questions such as, what is my purpose in life? What's gonna happen after we die? Science can never answer that question. But can religion do? Maybe. So according to him, saying that Science has all the answer is wrong same as when saying God must be the answer. For him, God maybe the answer. The safest thing to say is a possible statement. A possibility that God might be the answer to these questions.

To the second statement: God is emotionally dispensable.People nowadays see God as a last resort. When all fails, they run to God for help. It's their defense mechanism. When they think they can't do it anymore, they look for comfort on someone they believe in as a higher being. It's an illusion that their is a higher being that is willing to help. But is there really a higher being? Or is it just a state of mind. A placebo effect they call it.

To quote Jolin Robinson's article, Can a Truly Contemporary Person Not Be an Atheist?: "According to this line of attack, religion is a prop or a sop. it is not merely something incredible and superfluous; it is a dangerous illusion which can prevent men facing reality and shouldering responsibility." With that said, when men is praying to God, they forget about the reality believing that there is something/someone higher to help thus leaving/dropping their responsibilities because they let God do the job. That's my point of view. God is their escape. Because they believe that God is there to catch them.

Why do Atheist came up with this idea? Atheist wants to stop this illusion of refuge to a father figure or God. Atheist create their own destiny or their fate based on the reality they are in. Their success is their own and not by some being they don't see.

Do I agree with this? Party and sadly yes again. We create our own destiny and no one else. I don't belive in miracles. coz reality wise, miracles never happen, circumstances does. Living our lives is really up to us and not to God. It is our responsibility to control it.

To conclude, I don't yet fully understand Atheism. My stand on this is well in the middle. I'm still confused whether or not I believe in God. 25% of my whole being says I don't and the rest does. I was raised in a Catholic environment. It's hard to suddenly believe in something that I thought I should never believe in. My beliefs are in conflict. I'm hoping to find solution to this dilema. I'm not closing doors. I'm just being open to both sides. As for now, I may or may not say prayers, do the sign of the cross or whatsoever. If there is really a God, please enlighten us in ways that you alone knows.

Depressed

2009-11-13T05:19:00.000-08:00

Depressed ako ulit. I'm not really sure kung bakit pero depressed ako. I don't feel good. Siguro sa sobrang changes na nangyayari ngayon nahihirapan akong mag cope up. First of all, I'm on diet. Minsan di na ako kumakain, minsan naman napapasobra. Pero the good thing is, constant ang weight loss ko. Yun nga lang pa isa isang lbs lang. Pero better than nothing right? Secondly, siguro affected ako masyado sa mga changes na nangyayari sa classroom. Nawala ang 3 sa ka-group ko at medyo nahirapan ako mag adjust kasi nawala sila. They used to be good buddies. They were the people i talk to most of the time. Tapos may mga ka-group pa talaga na walang kwenta. Halata masyadong di nila ako gustong kasama. Ako ay sensitive kaya affected ako agad pag mga ganyan. Thirdly, naiinis ako sa isang tao sa classroom. Nung nalaman ko na siya pala yung may gusto kay Johanna, nag selos ako bigla. Nag selos ako kasi clown siya ng klase while I'm a no one. Nagselos ako kasi kakampi nya most people sa classroom while I only have a few. Naiirita na rin ako sa kanya. Sige na lang joke joke kahit wala na sa lugar. Sobrang papansin na. Ewan ko ba bakit affected ako bigla habang dati wala lang naman sa akin yun. Fourthly, siguro naging distant ako sa mga kaklase ko. Di ko na alam pano mag approach sa mga kasama ko everyday. Minsan iniisip ko, sana duty na lang lagi. Wala nang lecture. I'd rather be with my group mates than the whole class. Lastly, di ko na alam kung bakit humihina na ako sa klase. I used to be really good. I used to really have a good memory on certain things. Right now. I dunno. I can't answer a simple question anymore. Kanina, naiirita din ako kasi si Miko, si Luis, ug si Caranay na lagn sige'g answer sa mga questions ni maam. tapos ako nag tanga lang. I know it's not a competition but I can't help it. I always see them as competitions. Dati kasi ako din sige answer sa questions. Ngaun di na ako makasagot. Lagi akong mental block. Waaaaa!! tsaka dati, si Caranay. Di siya annoying, di siya competition. Pero ngaun na nalaman ko na may gusto siya kay Jo tapos suportado ng mga kasama nyang mga unggoy, naiirita ako pag anjan siya. Grabe ka seloso noh?
Hahai. Marami na din kasing distractions lately. I need another week of break. I need to pick up some pieces na naiwan ko somewhere.

Siguro I just think too much. And I just let everything, even the unnecessary ones, sink in to me. Sana maka cope up lang ako bigla. Rest lang siguro. Stressful na masyado ang life ko. Waaaaa!! Naiingit na rin ako kasi ang ibang friends ko makaka-graduate na. Dapat kasali ako pero hindi kasi kailangan ko bumalik. Tae.
Sige hanggang dito na lang.

Cello's Doughnuts and Dips

2009-11-07T11:00:00.000-08:00

One day, my sister came home carrying an orange box. I wonder what it was until she opened it. It was cute small donuts. Where did it come from? The answer. Cello's Doughnuts & Dips. Finally! Something new in Davao. I guess we're tired of the same old (not to mention dry) donuts of Dunkin' Donuts and Mister Donut, the only ones we have here in Davao. I'm really glad a new doughnut is here to give incredible sensation to our tongues and satisfy our cravings for sweets.

Chocolate, Double Chocolate and Oreo

Box of 6: Regular

P150

Cello's doughnuts offer a variety of very yummy donuts. Cello's donuts are very different from your ordinary donuts. Normally, donuts would look brownish because of the frying, but these donuts stay white/yellowish (like Pastels) as the dough they are made of. And they are really soft. Unlike other donuts, once it cooled it gets hard. These donuts do not. They stay soft even if you don't eat them right away.

Box of 15: Cocktails

for P165

As mentioned, Cello's offers a variety of flavors for their donuts. From as simple as Cheese, M&Ms (everyone's favorite), Oreo, Peanut Butter, Caramel, Choco and Candy sprinkled, Chocolate (my personal favorite) to as complex as Dark Belgian Chocolate, Blueberry Cream Cheese, Chocolate Chocolate Chip cookie and more.

And they come in different sizes too. There are cocktails or the small ones. The regular sized donuts. Their pillows which really looks like the pastel. It's only honey glazed but they provide dips for flavors. They have the munchkin type. I forgot the name. I'll check it soon when i get back there. And the LETTERS! Aside from donuts, they also offer drinks. Coffee, Coffee mixes, chocolate mixes and juices.

The complete menu

click for larger view

Cello's Doughnuts and Dips is located near the school. Very accessible to students. Well, at least to Ateneo students or anyone near Sales St. So why don't we just see each other there. Try their donuts. Ditch the old dunkin and try the new cello's ;) Just kidding. Dunkin's a classic. but let's always make room for new ones.

Cello's Doughnuts and Dips Davao Branch

In front of Chimes Specialty Store, Sales St., Davao City

Tel No.:

Too Much To Eat Last Night

2009-11-06T18:16:00.000-08:00

When i got home last night from school, I wasn't really feeling well. You know about my depression? Oh yeah. I was depressed again last night for reasons I'm not really sure about. Mood swings I guess.

The first thing I did when I got home was to look on the table and see what Amor cooked for dinner. SINUGBANG BANGUS. Sounds yummy but it didn't look like it. So I searched the pantry for something of my liking and found.... *tadaa*.. Canned Tuna. Filled with oil, cholesterol, fats and other things that i should be avoiding. I cooked it with onions and tomatoes and served. I actually used a small plate because i read somewhere in the net that the bigger the plate you use, the larger meal you eat. Ha!! I proved it wrong last night.

There was a bowl of rice in front of me. First, I got a spatula full of rice, placed it on my plate and started eating. And then after that, i started getting some more. Then some more until only a couple of spoon full of rice was left in the bowl. Pig much right?!

After a very satisfying meal, i started feeling it. GUILT. The feeling Luis used to tell us when we invite him to eat. Guilt because, i was supposed to be on a diet. I'm trying to cut some waistline but then i can't discipline myself on not eating too much. And to top that, i now feel lazy to exercise. I want to exercise but my body just doesn't want to move. Oh yes. My body's controlling me when I'm suppose to be controlling it! But lucky for me, my weight didn't go up. It stayed on the same number or went down a little bit.

Right now, I won't eat a lot. I'm gonna forget RICE! Thankfully this morning, Amor cooked spoiled hotdogs. I almost digested one. YUCKS! It kept me from eating. LMAO.

Well, my mom's almost done. We're headin' out! See you later!

Lubdub...Lubdub...

2009-11-06T07:30:00.000-08:00

It Captured Me!

For a long time, I've never felt this way. Yung di na makatulog coz you keep thinking about that certain someone. You make plans about the future. Cheesy / Corny pero, ewan...

Every time I talk about her or I think about her, its always LUBDUB LUBDUB ♥

At first, i never really took the feeling seriously. Akala ko it's one of my crush crush lang

pero it's not!!! Now, it's not! It's the real thing.

On Sunday is her birthday and i'm planning something for her tomorrow. I just hope it works out.

I don't have any plan B set up at the moment if in case my plan doesn't go my way tomorrow. :D

WISH ME LUCK!

First Day of Class

2009-11-04T06:47:00.000-08:00

I wasn't so excited about it. Especially nung nagkagulo na kami about the schedule. The whole class weren't so sure where we should be. The night before, I made a note in Facebook and tagged some classmates to clarify whether or not tama ang gi post ko. It was like a debate. A funny debate. Hahaha! We decided we all go to the grade school campus and wait there for any information whether we should go to the college or stay at the grade school.

Today, I arrived a little late than expected. Abby was the first one there and greeted me with, "Kyle! Sa college daw tau!" Timing, tiningnan ko cellphone ko at may SMS ako galing kay Quibs saying, "Oy bai, naka post diri sa division na group 2 ka. So sa grade skul daw ana si ma'am ocampo." So medyo assured na si Abby na ganun. We stayed sa grade school na lang. Tapos dumating na si Luis tapos sunod-sunod na. Ang pangit lang dun kasi kami lang ang group na andun. Far away sa mga classmates namin kasi classmates namin nasa college lahat. We waited an hour for a CI. We assumed that those C.I.'s arriving are our C.I.'s. Turned out it was Ma'am Baniel. She called Abby on the phone asking us if we prefer to go to college or we stay there and wait for her. We voted to just go to the college. When we got there, sinali na kami sa class ni Ma'am David. Sila ni Ma'am Baniel ang mag le-lecture sa amin along with Section F. It was a fun lecture with them. Hahaha!

Anyway, other than the lecture, I'm really happy today. What was a very pretty bad night of thinking what schedule to follow, the day turned out really cool. The group was more intimate than before. LMAO. I guess it's because konti na lang kami. It's sad thinking na our ex-group mates wala na sa amin. pero looking on the brighter side, happy ako kasi.... happy lang. :D Sayang lang talaga yung iPhone kasi nabenta na sa price na di ko gusto. tsk. Pero sige lang. hanap tau ng bagong seller. :D

DARNA si Aling Dionisia

2009-10-30T07:41:00.000-07:00

Aling Dionisia Pacquiao as DARNA

Because of the high ratings of Katursi (Katorse), Aling Dionisia is now back with a new "serye", DARNA!

The role was first offered to Marian Rivera but since Marian is not a good actress and can't do the role, the management gave it to Manny Pacquiao's mother, Aling Dionisia Pacquiao.

Definitely, it's going to be a hit! HAHAHA!

fabricated story only

Pero sa totoo lang, sobrang nakakatawa ang picture. Grabe na kasikat si Mommy Dionisia dahil sa mga edits na ito. For sure nakita nyo na yung Katurse picture niya. Hahaha! Sobrang laughtrip nun. and now, eto na naman. Darna. I can't wait for the next one. Sobrang laughtirp talaga ang mga to.

Noynoy Aquino's Campaign Ad

2009-10-30T06:49:00.000-07:00

Hindi Ka Nag-Iisa by Regine Velasquezfor Noynoy Aquino's Campaign Ad
The video and the song is very inspiring (and Star studded to). It gives hope to the people of the Philippines.Maybe. Maybe Noynoy is the hope of the Filipinos.I guess they're right. We need a leader with conscience.Someone who puts the nation first before self for the betterment of the country.If only I was able to register and be able to vote on the election,I will surely vote for Noynoy for president.Hope he wins. And Mar (Roxas) too
For sure, FULL FORCE ang Youth during the elections.Kailangan na natin talaga ang change sa bayan.CHANGE FOR THE BETTERMENT OF ALL THE FILIPINO

Officially Enrolled!

2009-10-30T06:39:00.000-07:00

After 3 days of waiting, lining...and more waiting, I'm finally enrolled. Supposedly dapat kahapon pa ako tapos, but because of procrastination di ako naka-enroll kahapon. We watched a movie remember?... or did i share that to you? Well, that's another story.

Kanina, I woke up late. When I got to school, a lot of people were already waiting for their turn sa may finance office. Kumuha na ako agad ng priority number. To my surprise, number 483. Medyo matagal tagal. Di na nga nakapag lunch sa kahihintay. Pero since patient ako sa paghihintay. Umabot din sa 483 at nakapag enroll ako. Pero di pa ako certified 2nd sem student coz I didn't have my ID validated. To many people were lining and waiting for 2 hrs was enough for the day. I decided to go home after paying. Grabbed a cup of Fit n' Right fruit snacks and then went home. I'll have my ID validated on the 4th.

As of now, I'm excited to go home to San Fran for the 'Undas'.

Health Tip for the Day

2009-10-29T10:17:00.000-07:00

Found this on the net

"You can't be unhappy when you're smiling or singing"

Keeping a positive mental outlook is important in a person's health.

Because when you're happy you could do whatever you want

You can achieve the unachievable.

Taken from the book, THE SECRET by Rhonda Byrnes,

if you're feeling down, SING! It makes you less sad because you're altering your mind

Bottom line: Always smile. Be Positive!

and another tip, easy way to be happy is be with a person that makes you smile.

For example a special someone.

Hello's and Goodbye's

2009-10-29T06:37:00.000-07:00

Catchy title. I know. Just thought of it all of a sudden. Actually it's about the upcoming second semester of the school year. Let's start with the GOODBYE'S. It was a big shock for all of us. The once united and happy section of 3E is now not so happy anymore. 8 of our classmates were transferred to another section because of subject time conflicts. All 8 of them together in another section. I feel really sad because 3 of the 8 were my group mates. Johanna, Mika and Amir. Oh. I'm gonna miss those guys, especially Joh. Malapit na birthday nya and i had a plan but i don't think i'll be able to execute it since I'm on the Monday group and she's on the Thursday group. Well to top that, Bonita's is now part of Group 1. It's not gonna be same as before. It's not going to be fun anymore :(. Anyway, i guess let's stop talking about it. Let's go to the HELLOS.

Again, for the 4th year in college, Miko and I are going to be classmates again. Medyo matagal na pinagsamahan namin kasi since 1st year college pa kami. Then 2nd year good buddies. Tapos still on the same section during our pseudo-3rd year moment and now on our 3rd year. Well, I'm glad a friend is joining the gang. I'm hoping that he's gonna like the class.

Another one returning from a long absence. Trina. Trina and I are good friends since 1st year summer class. She stopped studying when something happened during her 3rd year. Now she's back and she's on my section. I'm not really sure if I'd be glad or be disappointed. Know why? Because Kristina should have been on my group until Trina told me she'd be on my section. So Trina is replacing Tina. Well, whatever. I guess I just have to accept the fact that she's gonna be on my group and Tina won't.

Film: This Is It

2009-10-28T16:35:00.000-07:00

This Is It

Directed by Kenny Ortega (High School Musical)

The movie all Michael Jackson fan has been waiting for. A tribute to the King of Pop who died last June of this year. The film is about Michael Jackson's rehearsal and interview videos and backstage footage for his comeback concert tour in London. I'm not really a Michael Jackson fan but I love some of his songs and for me, the film is really good though its just like a patch work of footages.

So the film started with interview of Michael's back up dancers thanking him, showing their appreciation to be included in the comeback concert. The film gave me goosebumps especially when Michael started to sing and to dance to his songs. Songs included on the film are (only listing my favorites and not in order according to the film) They Don't Care About Us (The effects and the dance really Wowed me!), Human Nature, Wanna Be Startin' Something, Smooth Criminal, The Way You Make Me Feel, I Just Can't Stop Loving You, Thriller (Thriller on the film is really good especially the set. Nice work), Black or White, Billie Jean, Man in the Mirror and Heal the World (I actually didn't hear it in the film. I think this is played during the credits?).

Oh and I salute the dancers. They were good. Of course with the help of the King of Pop. The lady who played the guitar.... *bow* and the music director.....

Para sa mga Single

2009-10-27T05:30:00.000-07:00

Eto ang listahan ng mga EXCUSES ng mga single!

Have fun!! Matamaan ang mga single na madaming excuses.

GROW UP GUYS!

Di na uso ang mga ganyan. Tang ina...

To think single pa din ako. Bwahaha!

Buti na lang di yan ang mga reason ko sa pagiging single.

Victory by Bond

2009-10-27T05:25:00.000-07:00

Victory by Bond
I'm not familiar with them. I just discovered them last night when Kakat played it on Jaypee's cellphone.
Anyway, I'm sharing it to you coz' i think their music is cool.
Instrumental but upbeat. Fun to listen to. Enjoy!

Proud Much?

2009-10-27T04:51:00.000-07:00

Click the picture above to see it in full

Let's just say I'm a little proud that I passed first semester. Here are my grades from Prelims to Finals. Pre-finals and Finals are not complete. The school hasn't posted them yet on the net. I got my grades from the school website; http://www.addu.edu.ph/. When logging in to the website, you really have to put the 3 "w"'s for it to work.

Anyway, as you can see, my grades on NCM both lec and RLE are high on prelims and midterms. The main explanation is i'm smart and i'm good + we were blessed to have very cool, very kind, very motherly clinical instructors who gives us grades that we really deserve. Unfortunately, sa pre-finals, mababa ang grades ko. Lumagpag ako sa NCM lecture because of the final exam. 41/100 lang ata ang kuha ko. Kahit na mataas ako sa compre 82/110, di pa rin ako nahila at bumaba ako ng ilang points. From 81 sa midterms naging 75 na lng ako sa final grade. Pero thankful ako kasi pasado pa rin kahit na bumaba. I'll make sure next sem i'll do better than 75.

For my philo. Prelims, I got 74. Bagsak. Pero on midterms, bumawi ako at nakakuha ako ng 81. Thanks to the quizzes na binawi ko. Pati sa pre-fi na grade ko 80. mataas pa rin. so OK na talag sa akin ang 78 sa final grade talaga. Kanina when i was waiting to see my grades akala ko talaga bagsak ako.. whew! buti na lang pasado. hehe! thankful... I guess mataas grade ko sa bring home exam. *fingers crossed*

Anyway, until the end of next sem! I'll do good next sem to share to you a good grade! :P

2nd semester here i come!

2009-10-27T02:38:00.000-07:00

So i went to school today to ask how much my tuition will be (i already shared this nth times. lmao) and to see my grades. When i got there, kala ko, only few people would be there coz yung iba on vacation pa. I was wrong. It was like school day again. People crowding the canteen and people on every floor of the Finster building. Dumiretso na ako sa 4th floor. The division wasn't as crowded as i expected. Pag labas ko ng elevator, si Kate and Rhoi ang nakita ko. I asked them kung nakita na nila grades nila and they pointed out at the division window. Sabi nila pumila lang daw ako dun. Then nakita ko si DD writing the schedules. Since I didn't bring any piece of paper and a pen, i took a picture of it na lang. Nung pumila na ako balik, kinakabahan ako kasi iniisip ko baka bagsak ako sa Philo. Thank God nung nakuha ko ang grades, pasado naman lahat. I was just a little disappointed with my NCM Lecture. 75 lang ang grade ko. Passing pero mababa pa rin. I wasn't expecting that to be my grade. Siguro mga 78 or 77 ok pa siguro. Pero kahit na ganun, I'm still thankful kasi pasado ako lahat ng subjects. Move on na ako sa 2nd sem. Congratulations to me! :D

Health Tip for the Day

2009-10-26T21:27:00.001-07:00

vs.

Got this from a site where i get diet tips.

I just forgot what site it was

"KFC's Chicken Meal is much healthier than a McDonald's Burger Meal"

Actually both of them are not really that healthy

but comparing them to each other, KFC's much healthier coz it's serving chicken

and we all know that chicken is one of the healthiest meat there is minus the skin right?

Unfortunately, KFC's chicken still takes a bath on hot boiling oil.

Bottom line: So if it's your cheat day, don't go to McDonald's instead go order skinless chicken from KFC.

*whispers* KFC's got healthy options too... SALADS!

2009-10-26T12:06:00.000-07:00

I'm home. Just got back from drinking with friends. It's now 3 in the morning. Whew! How should i say this? Tonight or last night? well, whatever. Bottom line, I had fun. THE USUALS are the best when it comes to hanging out.

So we were at Jaypee's crib. There were only 6 of us. Me, Miko, Kakat, Jaypee, Chesna and Aira. Kahit konti lang kami ang saya pa rin. Sige lang kami tawa. Talking about a lot of things, back biting some people and planning for the upcoming Christmas. Grape Juice and Ice tea lang tinira namin. Of course with a little something na rin na nakahalo. GIN! haha!

Nung umalis na si Aira, sumunod na si Chesna. Hinatid namin siya using Jaypee's car. After Chesna, we went to McDo. Dun na kami nagpalipas oras hanggang 2am. Then nag si-uwian. And here I am blogging for you whoever you are.

Actually masakit ulo ko ngaun. Di ko alam if its because of the "juice" or is it because I had like 7-8 sticks of cigarettes tonight. Ugh. Thinking of it, shit! Ang daming yosi na naubos ko. TAE!

And to top it off, ang dami kong na consume na food tonight. Nag dinner ako + the junk food we ate + an apple pie and sundae at McDo. And eto pa... Kumapit ka na kasi mas malala to. Nakagasto ako ng 400pesos in one night. Grabe ka gasto. I only have 1000 left and that's my gym money. Hahai.

Well, i guess hanggang dito na lang. I need rest. It's 3:08am na and i feel like my whole body's gonna shut down anytime soon. I need rest coz later i'll be at school to check how much my tuition will be for the second sem. Dammit. Good night guys!

Movie: League of Extraordinary Gentlemen

2009-10-26T03:21:00.000-07:00

The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen

Directed by Stephen Norrington

Starring Sean Connery, Shane West, Peta Wilson, Tony Curran, Stuart Townsend, and Jason Flemyng

It's an action, fantasy and sci-fi film about 6 men and 1 woman with extraordinary skills / powers.

The group was assembled to fight alongside against a certain nemesis, The Phantom/Fantom that is threatening to destroy Venice and might start a World War.

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What to do when you're bored? Watch a movie. Sa sobrang dami ng DVDs namin, di ko alam kung ano panunuorin ko. Ang iba medyo corny, ang iba naman medyo napanuod ko na ng ilang beses at nakakasawa na kasi memorize ko na anong mangyayari. So i rummage through all the DVDs and CDs available until I saw this one DVD with torn pictures. League of Extraordinary Gentlemen. I thought, siguro di na sira to so i put it on the player and started playing. Oy... Di nga siya sira. Ay... may sirang parts pala.. pero konti lang so pinanuod ko na din. Nag enjoy ako sa movie. Favorite character ko sa movie si Dorian Gray, the Immortal. Sa di nakakaalam, si Dorian Gray ay isang character na binenta ang kanyang soul para sa eternal youth and immortality. Yung kanyang soul nakulong sa kanyang self-portrait. So since he's immortal, yung portrait nya ang tumatanda. Para siya mamatay, he only needs to look at his portrait to break his immortality. Ganun siya namatay sa movie. Till the next movie I guess.

Health Tip for the Day

2009-10-25T23:06:00.000-07:00

I got this from a Biggest Loser commercial:

"If the body isn't hungry for sleep, it wouldn't be hungry for food either."

Bottom line is: Get enough sleep. It helps increase your metabolism.

Other than weight loss, it also help revitalize your skin.

And there's a lot more benefit of sleeping. I still have to research on them though

The Saltwater Room by Owl City

2009-10-25T10:26:00.000-07:00

The Saltwater Room by Owl City
From the album Maybe I'm Dreaming.
This is Owl City love. I love the beat of the song.
And there's actually a girl singing. I never thought there's gonna be a girl.
Really really nice song. This is going to be my #2 Owl City favorite song.
#1 would be Fireflies. :P
Enjoy the song! Will be posting more owl city later today.

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

2009-10-25T10:16:00.000-07:00

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City
Another from my recent favorite artist, Owl City.
Favorite line from this song is the last three lines

Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,

I'd whisper in your ear,

Oh darling I wish you were here.

Here's the complete lyrics. Enjoy the song. SING WITH IT!

LYRICS:
The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find opposing new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

Fireflies by Owl City

2009-10-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

Fireflies by Owl City
Was gonna post the original music video but embedding of the music video is disabled by request.
so i searched for the same song that could be embedded and i got this.
enjoy the song. It's cool!
OWL CITY is cool. Love their music.

Untitled

2009-10-25T08:09:00.000-07:00

I woke up because of the sound of the car. It was 8am, too early for me. I ran to the door trying to call my mom. She and my sister were on their way to my sister's badminton tournament. I called out to my mom asking her where my keys are. She told me she'd give it to me when they come back. 8am. Too early for a no-school day. I tried going back to sleep but i can't. I just can't. I'm already awake and it's going to be hard to go back to dreamland. I flip the plates covering our breakfast. Ugh. Sardines. That's a pool of uric acid. Not good for me. Surprisingly, lately i'm becoming more and more health conscious. I try to avoid what i should be avoiding. Anyway, i digress. So, i opened the computer monitor and logged on to facebook trying to check some new updates from friends. Nothing new. No updates.

Oh i almost forgot. It's Sunday. My free day from dieting. I have to treat myself. Eat outside. So, impromptu, i planned on eating lunch outside then watch a movie. I tried inviting people but there were no replies. It was almost 12 and i was still procrastinating and didn't get ready. Instead of eating lunch out, i ate here at home. What was it that i had for lunch? Hmmmm... *thinking* oh yeah. It was 'adobong kangkong' and fresh red (well, they are actually orange) tomatoes. My new found favorite dish. After lunch, i decided to take a bath and get ready. It's been a day since i took a bath. The feeling is really nice once the water hits you. Ah... So refreshing. I stayed in the water for like 15mins. I was really enjoying the water.

At the mall... My original plan was to eat lunch (or actually just anything) and then watch a movie. But then as i've told you i ate lunch at home. So my agenda was to watch a movie and then eat something. But since I'm a random person and i change my mind very often, i didn't do everything. I did watch a movie though. It was Julie & Julia. Very nice movie. It's a feel-good movie. It's a biography of some famous cook from the past. While watching the movie, i had a bottle of Fit n' Right Pine-Orange (first time to try it. the flavor) and a bag of chips (Nova). After the movie, i was thinking of eating at Red Ribbon. Just a slice of Chocolate Mousse. But when i got there, my mind told me i'm on diet (even during my free day) so i just took off and went straight to the grocery looking for a bottle of blueberry flavored Fit n' Right and a cup of Fit n' Right food thing and/or a cup of strawberry yogurt. I end up buying just a bottle of blueberry Fit n' Right. That's what you call, I'M ON DIET!

Sembreak Baby!

2009-10-19T11:23:00.000-07:00

Finally! After doing my extension duty today, it's officially semester-break (sem-break for short) for me. Actually, it suppose to start last week but since i have an extension duty obligation and need to finish it, which i did today, i'm officially free for 2 weeks.

Tomorrow (actually later coz it's already 2:30am), i'll be leaving Davao for i while.I'll be gone for a week. I'll go somewhere i could focus on something. I will surely miss my friends aka group mates. but i guess we need this little separation for that purpose. to miss each other. sobrang cheesy! i just hope when we get back on the second sem, everything's back to normal just like before. ayt?

Anyway, i still need to pack my things. I'll be taking off at 9am this morning. Needs to wake up at 7 or earlier to pack. By 8 I'll leave the house and then by 9, i'm off. I'll just sleep when i get there. I'm excited! I'll be meeting some people I haven't seen for quite some time.

Uh. This is getting long. and my eyes are starting to fall off. Just need to do some small edits on this post and then it's shut eyes for me for a while. i still have a few hours to sleep before i'll prepare. so ciao for the moment. I'll be gone for a week. no FBs, no plurks (should i freeze or not?) no computer.

2009-10-18T09:13:00.000-07:00

Whew! Dieting is so not fun. and exercising. but i have no choice but to do these things. I need a change in my life. and it has to start with my weight. I'd be miserable for the rest of my life if i don't lose down some weight. a lot of guys out there did it and succeeded. so should i. i just need more discipline and control. Especially on my cravings. Once i see good food on the table, there's no stopping me. I hate it. I can't resist. That's why i need to control. I need resistance. Experts says that weight loss is effective if we avoid placed with food. I guess they're right because when you're on a place with so much food, you just can't resist trying those. Bit by bit then plate by plate. It sucks.

I really need a new life. I hate being miserable all the time. I hate being rejected. I hate feeling ridiculed by other people because of how i look. Right now, i need someone to help me. be my buddy. coz by next week, i'll be hitting the gym again. And this time for good. This will be the transition phase of my life. I just hope i won't feel awkward with those people there. Hahaha!!
Besides the gym, i've been doing my own exercises here at home. I do jump ropes, decline push ups, improvised weight lifting. lol. Can you believe i used a case of powerade as weight. lol. i tried decline bench press and to tell you honestly, never felt the effect. my arm didn't hurt. lmao. i guess i did it wrong. that's why i can't wait to go to the gym and be taught by the instructors.

Well, anyway, wish me luck. I'll be going on a trip after my duty tomorrow afternoon. I'll be taking off on Tuesday!

THE MOON

2009-10-03T10:43:00.000-07:00

No wonder I feel strange. Hahaha! It's the week of the full moon.
I'm not sure why. But every time it's full moon week, i feel really strange.
Strange like I feel depressed the whole time and I don't wanna talk with other people.
Or at least people i like to talk to/with.
Oh and i should say the depressed thing only happens during the day.
During the night, i feel good again. I feel hyper.

HAHAHA!
I guess I'm a LUNATIC. I'm insane. Hahaha!
I've got a mental disorder i guess.
Well, I'm OK with it. I can't do anything about it so i guess i'm fine with it.

Lingawa sa mga classmates nako oi

2009-10-02T02:26:00.000-07:00

Hahaha! Sugdan nako ug katawa akong post kay nalingaw ko sa akong mga classmates.

Kanina, sige lang mi ug katawa.

wala lang. nag share lang ko nga nalingaw ko sa akong uban classmates.

Since dili na kaau mi ga storya-anay sa akong mga ka-group (ambot ngano?), nangita ko'g lain kalipay.

Nakakita ra man sad ko kalipay sa lain grupo.

Sa akong grupo naman, hulat lang ko kanang kinahanglan na nila akong mga services.

Hahaha! laina pagka storya oi. dili diay...

OK pa man japon mi sa akong uban ka-grupo oi.

Ah basta. Kung asa ang lingaw, didto ko. apil apil ba. immerse with others.

boring man kung pirmi pirmi na lang ang imong kauban unya dili japon ka storyahon diba?

syempre, didto na lang ko sa kanang naa ko'y kastorya. malipay pa ko. mag sge pa ko'g katawa.

Wala man ko nalain sa akong mga ka-grupo. lay-low/lie-low lang siguro ko kadali.

besides, naa lang ko'y gina test.... something lang. hahaha!

oh diba? ana ra na.

basta kato akong gina-ingon, kung asa ang kalipay didto ko. diba?

sige dinhi ra kutob. sa sunod na sad.

kay murag taas taas na sad ang akong gipanulti diri. mag plurk na sad ko.

Where in the world should i place myself?

2009-09-24T21:55:00.000-07:00

Kung lumalayo ako, the more na naga long ako na makasama siya.
The more naman na lumalapit ako, nasasaktan ako. So whatever i do. I still get hurt.
Pano na lang? Yoko na. Ang sarap na mag quit sa life. Pero sabi nga nila, think positive wag aayaw.
Hahai..
Di ko na alam san ilulugar sarili ko.
Gusto ko kalimutan ang feelings pero hindi ko magawa. Too easy to say... So hard to do.
Hahai... Araw-araw mo ba namang kasama..
Sabi nila, it's my choice daw to be happy or to be sad.
Talaga? Bakit? Gusto ko ba nararamdaman ko? Di naman ah. So how is it my choice?
It try stuff to avoid it pero is it my fault hindi siya mapigilan.
Oh yes. I guess I'm that person who acts immediately on impulse. Kaya siguro no matter what i do, kahit i try my hardest to try to forget what i feel, hindi pwede. coz my mind (and in this case including the heart) is actually acting on impulse. ain't love suppose to be like that. You don't have to think about it.
If it's GO then GO! hahai...

Ka complicated sa life. I wish God never invented such feelings.
pero kung ganun na din, siguro ka-boring na ng world... Waaaa! Dami ko na sinasabi just to have an excuse.

IT HURTS

2009-09-23T07:30:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah baby.... It hurts... so much...
Grabe.. Na feel ko naga crumble heart ko ba. Pota. Ka-sarap mag emo oi.
Ahhhhhhh..... HEART!! Sana di na lang nakilala.
Grabe... Sakit... Ma-feel ko siya figuratively ba. Masakit pala ma-heartbroken. :(
pwede mag emo gamay? lami kaau i-emo ba :'(

Shit!! Pretend na lang ta ugma. Duty pa jud. Sige na lang... :)
Pretend. as if di affected. Hahai.... Grabe. Di jud ko pagbigyan ni Lord. Kahit sana ito lang.
Ahhhhhhh!!!! Masakit.... Ouch.... Broken hearted na naman.
Lord bakit ba may mga ganitong circumstances.
INCOGNITO na sad ugma. Di na pud ko ka-concentrate.
I guess wala na jud akong chance maging happy. Miserable na lang pirmi.

Gusto ko na mag retire sa ganitong feeling. Lord, pwede? Retire na ko beh. Dili na ko gusto masakitan.
Lain baya kaau. Challenge lagi pero pirmi lang man ko pildi. Dili ko kabalo unsaon pag diskarte kay mahadlok ko kung unsa ang reaction sa tao kung naa ko'y diskarte. Ahhhhh!!!

:'(

DRINKING SESSIONS

2009-09-21T22:59:00.000-07:00

Last week, yung group ko, nag decide kami na mag night out after our duty. So last Saturday, natuloy kami. Ako, Leh, Abby, Joh, Amir, Bonita and DD. Yung iba di na nagsama kasi di pinayagan. Sa Torres kami napadpad. Naka Type C uniform pa kami nun. Well at least pambaba lang ang type c. nakabihis na rin kami ng t-shirt. At first, plano namin sa Pescado. tapos biglang nag text si Rikka na sinama sila ng papa nila sa Torres din. Sa Pista Lokal. So ayun. Nag pista lokal na lang kami. May upuan at table ng nakahanda para sa group. I ordered Margarita (blue) at 2 GPS. Yun na gi shot namin. It was fun kasi na tipsy ako. Yung iba din. After nun, uwian na.

Then Monday, birthday ng classmate namin na si Tommy. Buti na lang holiday. So nag decide sila na mag beach. Sumama ako. The company was almost boys lahat then a few girls. Ako, Leh, Mark, Cram, Tommy, Yobs, Boogie, Louie, and Deo ang guys. Tapos ang girls naman, si Zane, Tetet, Joh and Rikka. So medyo late na dumating si Joh and Rikka kasi may ibang pinuntahan pa din sila. Nalasing ako at si tommy. hahaha!! nawala pa talaga phone ko. sabi nila nalunod na daw yun sa dagat pero iniisip ko, di ko nadala sa dagat un. imposible. di naman siguro ako ganun ka tanga para madala ko sa dagat un. so ayun. nalasing ako. grabe inom namin. TANDUAY.
Suka ako ng suka sa bahay. disgusting. pero nakatayo pa rin ako. nakapag toothbrush, naligo, naghilamos. hahaha!! nakatulog ako mga 3 na kasi sobrang sakit ng ulo ko

I'm SICK!!

2009-09-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

Nag start siya last night. I started sneezing nung matutulog na sana ako. Nag continue siya until today. Until tonight. And i think it will be here for a long time. I really hate being sick. Especially kung sipon, ubo and sore throat. Troublesome masyado kung meron kang sakit na ganyan. Very annoying. Hahai. Ngaun pa talaga na may duty ako bukas 3-11.

Hahai. Sige pa naman ako take ng Vit. C. Wala man pala pa rin mangyari. Sinungaling ang mga vitamin C. Kala ko ba i-protect kami from illness. naku. haha!! di tuloy ako ngaun makatulog kasi di ako makahinga. ang sakit pa talaga ng lalamunan ko.

Ah. sana mawala na ito soon. Makalagot! >:(

Don't Hope For It

2009-09-14T07:58:00.000-07:00

No matter what I do, wala na talaga. Kaya don't hope for it. Futile na din kung di ko siya papansinin. Wala man pa rin mangyari pansinin ko man siya or hindi. Kakalungkot lang kasi everyday anjan. Mahirap iwasan. Siguro nga dapat di na mag iwas iwas. Anjan na yan eh. Let's all be happy. I'm done with the emo stage. I should move on. That's the only way. Move on. Hahaha! Forget and move on. Pero ignore. Wag na. Everyone are friends. Pero more than that. Don't hope for it.

I'll try to be happy. Emo moments are gone. Really. I'll be back to that lively guy. Happy-go-lucky guy people once knew. Mas maganda un.

I Want BEATS!

2009-09-13T07:41:00.000-07:00

After seeing my brother's friend walking around campus with his beats on his ears, i thought to myself i want one. Haha! I have the money for it, the problem is where can i buy a good one. One with good brand. Good brand means Good Quality. I've seen a few good ones on the net.

Red version of the Steel Series Siberia Headphones

I really love to get one. hahaha! In the Philippines it costs around 4500 to 5000

The color would really look hot. Could be paired with any colored shirt. So fashion wise wala siyang problema kasi nga bagay siya kahit ano. especially on black.

No name for this. Randomly found it on Google.

This one looks emo-ish. but the color is love. Red and black really look hot together.

Can't wait to have one. Just have to search where to buy one.

This one's a Nixon Nomadic Headphone.

I think it comes on different colors. Black, Red and White looks good.

I want a white one. I want it paired with my Type C uniform. Gwapo ko siguro tingnan. Ahihihi

This is a white skulls headphone. Ganda na naman siya i-pares sa uniform

pero maganda pa rin siya kahit anong outfit.

White is neutral! :P

Family Bonding

2009-09-13T07:02:00.000-07:00

KFC @ NCCC Mall for lunch

We haven't done this for a long time. Or siguro sa part lang siguro nako. Anyway, we spent the day at NCCC Mall with cousins. Nag tan-aw man mi ug sine. They watched funny KimmyDora and I watched scary the Grudge 3 (alone). That's another achievement from my 100 things-to-do-list-before-i-die. I really had a great time with them. I guess kasi lahat libre. My tita is on free-spending mode and libre mode. I remember naa siya utang sa ako na isa ka gallon na ice cream. Pero wala na yun. She treated everyone sa Mandarin SM the other night and then treated us to movies this morning and then treated us lunch at KFC NCCC. Till next time na sad siguro. I'll look forward to it. Haha! pero even in spending-mode... Di na masisira diet plans ko.

Margas Maternity Reproductive Clinic

2009-09-10T07:58:00.000-07:00

Margas Maternity Reproductive Clinic

CarTir Square, Buhangin, Davao City

The worst lying-in / maternity clinic so far. I woke up so early in the morning to have a duty in a God-forsaken place (sorry for the words). Lying-in clinics should be alternatives for delivery rooms. It's much cheaper than the hospital, though not as protocol-oriented as the hospitals. Delivery rooms and maternity clinics are places where life is born. But unfortunately, just as i said, Margas in Buhangin, Davao City is a God-forsaken place. I guess I'm just expecting too much. We only had one life being brought in to this world.

Aside from the fact that it's the most boring place in the world, it's very far away from my house. And mahirap siya hanapin. Especially if you don't have any idea where the place is. Good thing non-aircon taxi akong nasakyan ganina. I was able to spend only 98php for the ride instead of some hundreds.

For the whole day, we only chatted, ate, slept, sang songs, heard music and even chasing and killing a few bugs. And unfortunately, we will be doing the same things for another 2 days. oh man! Oh yeah. I forgot, we will still be in Margas next week. 3-11 shift. Ugh! I hate it.

Extra Pay for SMS

2009-09-09T14:03:00.000-07:00

Plan to tax SMS causes uproar in Philippines

MANILA (AFP) - – Mobile phone text messages helped cause a revolution in the Philippines. Now the nation's mobile phone lobby is in uproar again over a multi-million-dollar plan to tax texting.

A consumer group hit out Wednesday at the planned tax, which is making its way through parliament, warning the country's 70 million mobile phone users would be unfairly required to carry the burden for a cash-strapped government.

"To rebel against this new tax law is justified," TXTPower leader Anthony Ian Cruz told AFP as he warned legislators seeking re-election in next year's national polls of a backlash.

The bill, proposing a five-centavo (0.1 cent) tax on every mobile phone short and multimedia message, could raise more than half a billion dollars a year.

It has already passed the committee stage of the lower house, and its proponents are now pushing for it to be endorsed fully by parliament and signed into law by President Gloria Arroyo.

They argue the money would be used to boost the government's education budget.

But Cruz pointed out that the government already collected a 12-percent value added tax on mobile phone services.

Instead of imposing the tax, Cruz said the government should cut wasteful spending and stem the loss of money through political corruption.

"Congress must exercise restraint in looking for ways and means to finance government programs and operations," he said.

Industry groups have branded the Philippines as the text capital of the world on a per capita basis, with up to 300 million messages criss-crossing phone networks every day.

In 2001, text messaging was used to gather tens of thousands of people on to the streets for a peaceful revolution that toppled the graft-tainted presidency of Joseph Estrada.

Go Simple!

2009-09-09T08:27:00.000-07:00

I just suddenly realized I'm sick and tired of those fancy layouts I put on my blog. So i decided to go back to a simple layout. "Simplicity is Beauty," sabi pa nga ni Karen lagi. Anyway, I'm a person who easily gets used to things. So this simplicity won't be permanent. Maybe tomorrow or later I'll go back to fancy layouts. Who knows?

Half-awake

2009-09-09T08:16:00.001-07:00

It's 11:16pm. I'm suppose to be sleeping right now coz i still have an early duty tomorrow. But who cares? hahaha! I control my time right? I'm on invi mode sa YM and I'm reading my sister's wordpress tryin to get some ideas on writing aka typing. It's hard to admit it pero idol nako siya when it comes to free writing. Anyway, I'm listening to Chairlift's Bruises. I like the song and the sound. Its a weird song choice for me since my kind of music are ballads. Well anyway, the point is i like the song.

2nd Highest sa CHN Grades

2009-09-09T06:52:00.000-07:00

Was suppose to write something emo again when i remembered the grades Maam Perucho sent me this afternoon. No emo for now. Maybe the next post. *wink*

So nagkita kami kanina nila Maam Perucho after our Philo period. Gi-dismiss kami ni sir earlier than expected coz he was attending a meeting. Thankful everybody. Haha! We talked to maam, dami pa namin napagusapan before we got to the grades. Nag labas lang din siya sa classroom nila para sa amin. Mahal talaga ni maam group namin. So ayun, nag greet ako kay maam ng happy birthday again. tapos nag funny remarks siya. tawa kami. tapos yun. binigay sa akin ang grades namin. :D

Grades namin on descending order:

(initials na lang. besides, di naman lahat kilala kung sino yan sila)

M.C. -88.42

ME - 88.04

L.L. - 87.92

A.D. - 87.62

D.E. - 87.28

C.D. - 86.67

J.G. -86.52

R.G. - 86.48

A.G. - 85.39

A.L. - 84.80

Yan na grades namin. Kahit second lang pala ako. maka proud pa rin. :D

Kala ko nga kanina ako highest pero sige lang. at least.

I Got A New Layout for My Blog

2009-09-09T05:01:00.000-07:00

I found this one from btemplates.com. It looks cool so i tried it. Hahaha!

Oh my. I guess I'm just bored. :D

Dreaming of A Broken Heart

2009-09-06T20:30:00.000-07:00

Title pa lang, kakaiba na. Hahaha!! For the past few days, well actually it's been 2 weeks na, I've been feeling depressed. What makes me depressed you ask? Hmmmm.... It's a 4 letter word. Don't make me spell it out right here. I'm not suppose to be talking about it. right? Haha!

You know what. I really hate feeling like this. It's always been like this every year. Finding someone to love pero di naman pwede. Hanggang tingin, dreams and fantasy na lang lagi. Hahai. Sabi nga sa kanta ni Rhett Miller na i'm beginning to like, "Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life"?

Last night, nilagay ko sa status ko sa YM, sa FB and sa Plurk ang, "I'll Be Dreaming with a Broken Heart," from the lyrics of John Mayer's song Dreaming With a Broken Heart. (Hahaha! I'm musically inspired.) Of course i said it figuratively. meaning, matutulog akong may broken heart. I didn't mean it naman na i'll dream about it. Pero unfortunately, nag dilang anghel ang status ko and i really did dream with and of a broken heart. haha! usually if i dream something, i'd forget about it as soon as i wake up. This one... i dunno why but i still remember it vividly. I could tell you all about it just like in the dream. And tell you. sosyal ang dream ko coz it happened in Hong Kong. Hahaha! makes me laugh coz before i sleep i was thinking about whether going to hong kong or a dslr after i graduate college. LMAO.

so ayun. something happened in the dream that really broke my heart. i woke up at 4am because of it. i felt like letting out my feelings but i couldn't. bumalik ako sa tulog. unfortunately, i was brought back to that scene again where sobrang sakit talaga. Even in dreams, nasasaktan ako.

I don't know na how to be happy. Everyday, Every minute i always think about that person. That suppose-to-be special person. pero i want it to stop already. Sabi ko nga sa friend ko last night, i can't wait to go to the states. Leave everything in here. Start a new leaf in my life. maybe there i could find happiness. just maybe....

I just wish i won't be dreaming of a broken heart again tonight. Tomorrow is going to be another day. Another day of pretending everything's fine. Another 1 pint of ice cream.

Drama Much

2009-09-05T18:52:00.000-07:00

Haha! I dunno why. Pero this past few days, ang dami na naman drama sa life ko. haha!!! Gugma as usual. I'm sick and tired of feeling the same shit over and over again. Oh well, if only they know how i feel. Pero ha! they're to busy dealing with their shits. I'm left alone again. POKER FACE. they seem so happy. why would i bother them. besides, they're the reason why i feel so down. if they only knew. haha! but then again, they don't care. as long as they're having fun together they won't care. i'm suppose to be immune to this coz it's been like this ever since. but i dunno. i still feel sad if it happens. well, i guess my life will never be happy. Waaa!!

I wrote something last night during the duty. i'm still thinking if i'll put it in here. it's about a lot of stuff. i'm quite surprise i was able to write a 3 page narrative about what i felt. haha!!! the wonderful things stress can do. LMAO

Networking, Recruitment and Divine Intervention

2009-08-31T04:45:00.000-07:00

A few years ago, a friend introduced me to networking. I'm not gonna explain it to you coz it will take me forever. And besides, i'm not good at explaining things. During that time, I was interested in joining the network coz it promised a lot of good things but due to its very high demand of a 10k investment, i wasn't able to join. And i find it a good thing because a few months after, the company was sued for not complying to something.

Should i name the company? Nah. I won't do that. I think they closed it down already. It was owned by a host from GMA7 (Survivor Philippines. Ha! That gave you an idea)

Today, i was invited again to join another networking company. Same as the first one, it promised good stuff. But unlike the first one that sold bags, shoes, cellphone loads and other stuffs, this new one sells Glutathione (i believe you guys already know about what gluta is, right?) in different forms: Green Tea, Vitamin C, Coffee Mix, Choco Mix and injectables. This networking company is licensed according to my friend who invited me. They have DTI Permit, BFAD approved and a LTO (License to Operate). So in short, they are legally operated.

It was my friend's sister who explained to me the "mechanics" or how their system works. and tell you, whew!!! They have great deals and i got carried away. I wanna join. They assured me that i will get back my investment of 8.9k within the month if ever i decide to join.

I can actually produce the money in so many ways. I'm a part-time businessman and not everybody knows about it. Even my parents doesn't know about it. What i need now is advice from people. Do i need to join? Ugh! I can't think straight. I really want to because of the offers they're serving in front of me. Oh and i really wanna try their products (Gluta with Green Tea extract. Helps in reducing weight. 6lbs lost in 4 days of using the product. and I really need to lose weight), another reason why i wanna join.

I'm asking God right now for Divine Intervention. I really need signs if what i will do is right. I really need signs that i won't waste my money onto something. I'm scared coz 9k isn't a joke. 9k nowadays is hard to get. You really need to work hard to get such an amount.

My friend and her sister describe the business as an anytime business because you can do it anytime and anywhere. Even though you're not doing anything, money will come to you as long as people are being recruited. That's why its called a networking business. Ugh!!! I really wanna join but i really wanna get an assurance that within a month or two i will get back the money i'll be investing because i still have plans for friend's birthdays, outings, my birthday and of course. Christmas.

Tonight, before I'll sleep, i'll pray to God to help me decide if i should go on or not. Yes. The business is a good opportunity... But waa!! I'm still not sure what will happen to my 9k. Oh GOD! This is makin' me crazy. I'm afraid baka kasi in the end, it will end up just like the other networking company before. Oh well... COME WHAT MAY!

2009-08-20T18:25:00.000-07:00

Waaaa! I was suppose to make a sad entry... but i remembered i made this blog to share my happiness... Oh well. I'm trying to be happy. I'm sad that's why I don't write in here so much. I guess i'll just have to tell you the things that happened last night. Well, that's a nice memory. :D

OK. so last night, me, my family and my relatives ate dinner at Mandarin's Restaurant at SM.

I was able to spend time with my baby boy, Clem2x. I miss him so much. He's almost 2 years old. The whole night, he was with me. He's actually a good exercise. I carried him the whole time last night. No wonder my arms are aching. Thinking about last night makes me smile.

I bought him ice cream. Before he doesn't like anything cold. Now, he like everything i give him. Hahaha!! I guess that's it.

They slept at Marco Polo last night. I canceled. I felt so tired last night that i thought i wouldn't be able to sleep if i sleep at Marco together with everybody else.

Not Feeling So Good!

2009-08-12T07:42:00.000-07:00

Whoa! For the past few days, medyo down akong feeling. No. I'm not sick. I just feel depressed. Again. I've never felt depressed for the past few months. Ngayon lang naman bumalik. Hahai! All i know is, it started in the community. Then after that, continue continue na siya till now. I don't know how to be happy again. My group mates/friends are affected. I can sense it. Kasi medyo nag bago pakikitungo ko sa kanila. And them doing the same to me.

I wanna go back to the "me" that was happy-go-lucky. I wanna have fun again. I wanna smile and laugh with my friends again. But i don't know where to start. I need some help, i know. But whose gonna help me? Where can i find it? Pwede ba paliton? Mag bayad ko. If kailangan ko mag bayad ng mahal, OK lang sa akin.

Hahai. I miss my friends. Yes. We always see each other everyday. I just don't feel being with them. Or at least to my group mates lang. I feel OK with other people. Well, i guess we didn't have the same connection as those as i have with my group mates. I guess we've build a bond that's different from other people. Well, that's what i think. I don't know with them. Waa!!

Here I go again. Pagiging sentimental ko. Shit! Sobrang cheesy! Hahaha!

Well, to friends whose reading this (haha! i bet no one's reading this but anyway)

I say sorry to you sa akong pagka-immature. I'm always like this. Haha! I've always believed I was born autistic in a mild spectrum. Kaya unpredictable akong emotions. I'm happy now the next minute I'm not. Yes. I know it's weird pero ewan. My dad already gave me an option to go to a shrink pero i declined because siguro gina-deny ko pa dati na something's wrong with me. Now na I'm ready, wala na kaming pera. haha! Hahai. kaya pagpasensyahan nyo na ako. Ganito lang talaga ako. I just need attention siguro. Kasi lately I feel like everyone's ignoring me. I feel like I'm alone again. :(

Anyway, another thing. Kanina i took this quiz in facebook: What is your biggest weakness?

and the result was JEALOUSY. Something I'd agree with. Hahaha!! I'm an envious person.

I'll paste the description of the whole result here.

You envy others, but you are also confident about yourself. But sometimes you wish you could be confident about yourself without the masks. You clean before people come over, even though you are typically a mess. You dress up or wear flashy clothes, because you feel like it will get attention and make you feel worth something. Sexiness is something you value, but you really want to be admired for your heart. You want someone to see through the masks and love you for you, but you sometimes don't know who that person is and you fear opening up to someone because you don't want to be hurt. You wish you could be like someone else, trade places just for a day, to see what it's like to be perfect. You like lists and getting things done, but you rarely finish them. You want to be loved, so badly, for who you are and you're just waiting for the right person to show you that it's okay to rest in who you were made to be, and not who you are always trying to be..

See? See? Ganyan na ganyan ako. :( Hahai.

Di ko na alam kung ano sabihin ba.

Sige na oi. I'll try to be happy. Ang maganda lang ngayon na depressed ako, i don't go to food na for comfort. Hahaha! I try to use our exercise machine everytime i feel down. yeah. Ok na rin yung nakakapag 6mins ako sa machine. Hahai...

CULMINATION sa COMMUNITY, Bad day for me

2009-08-08T22:38:00.000-07:00

Hahaha! For 5 days, gi-expose mi sa community. Ang amo gi panghimo didto kay mag interview ug mga pamilya, or in other words, nagsamok samok. 6 days unta ang among duty, unya unsaon ta man nga sa unang adlaw, wa'y nahitabo sa duty kay wala mi gi dawat sa una nga community nga among gi adtuan so nahimong 5 days na lang. Sa 4 days, kailangan namo ma-interview ang mga pamilya para makakuha ug mga information nga needed sa among mga requirements. And the last day is allotted for a culmination activity for the people. More like, consolation for the families we disturbed. Hahaha!

OK OK. So let me start relating to you my bad day. Oh yes. It was a bad day for me for a lot of reasons. And I don't think I'll be able to share all the reasons. Well, anyway, just listen to my litany. That morning, I woke up late. Around 5:30am. Yes. 5:30am, during a duty day is late for me. I live a few kilometers away from school. It takes me an hour to get ready and another hour to travel. I didn't take my breakfast and i rode a taxi. Well, maybe i should have started the night before. The reason why i was late. So the night before, i was compiling our case study. The whole night i stayed because i still need to wait for other people to send me their parts. I finished compiling at exactly 12am. Nakatulog ako mga 1:30am na. Kasi once i get so tired, nahihirapan akong matulog. So yun. Kulang na naman ako sa tulog. i usually complete my 8hours of sleep. Isa pa nun, because of the CP, di ko napa-print on time ang aking anecdotal report. Hahai. Minamalas nga naman.

Ok. Balik na tayo sa bad day. Ewan ko kung san siya nag start. Ewan ko. Feeling ko kasi na crush ang heart ko. Hahaha! Hindi ko din alam ang reason. Basta, bigla akong na-depressed nung araw na yun. Iba talaga ang feeling. Ni-alsa pa jud ko ug mga bangko nga astang bug-ata, nabasa ug singot akong likod. Uncomfortable kaau akong feeling. And another thing, once na de-depress ako, I feel like people don't care about me anymore, especially yung people na special sa a. Kaya medyo nalulugmok talaga ako. As in nawawala ako sa mood on everything. Di ko kinausap mga ka-group ko. Di ko sila maxado pinapansin. Pag dating sa site, naghanap ako ng security blanket ko. I went and mingle with the other groups.

Buti na lang i was able to compose myself during the culmination. ako baya nag emcee. Haha! yep. First time ko mag emcee. Feeling ko i did great. Oh yeah. i did great! After nung culmination, depressed pa rin ako. ah bahala na. hahaha!

basta yung culmination sa community successful. nalingaw man lahat. even me na super depressed nalingaw. though there were bored moments. The rest of the day after the culmination, nag chill na lang kami.

TITA CORY

2009-08-03T05:43:00.000-07:00

Just recently, the former President Corazon Aquino or famously known as Cory passed away. Everyone is mourning for the loss of a great leader and a mother to the nation. Cory is known not only in the Philippines but to the whole world because of her faith and the famous ousting of the former dictator, President Ferdinand Marcos. She is known to the world as the "Icon of Democracy."

Even before nung elementary days ko pa, Idol ko na talaga si President Cory. For the reasons na, she's the first woman president of Asia. It was on her term na na nag unite ang Philippines for one cause. Even as the head of state, the most powerful position in all countries, intact pa rin ang faith nya and she was never like other presidents who abuses the power that was bestowed on them. And according to my mom, Cory is the only president who wasn't corrupt. My mom's justification is that, Cory didn't need the people's money because their family's already rich. Cory's love to the nation is genuine. And i think no political power will ever change that. I admire her faith in God despite all the things that has been happening, she stayed true to her faith. And even though she's in power, she never failed to still be a mother to her children. She was a successful mother to her children thus she was a successful mother to the nation.

Another thing that reminds me of Cory is my nanay. Believe it or not, Pres. Aquino and my nanay has resemblance not only be face but also with actions. My nanay's actions and gestures are so much alike. Maybe because both were raised from a prominent family. Alam naman natin basta mga prominent family medyo conservative pero strong willed. Kaya minsan, yoko tumingin sa pictures ni Cory sa mga tributes on TV coz may hawig sila ng nanay ko. And medyo ka-age lang sila. Cory's just a year older.

PEOPLE POWER - EDSA Revolution

Sa story ng parents ko, sabi nila, during people power, very peaceful daw ang mga tao. Figuratively speaking. No one died during the revolution. It was the government against a praying nation. Nuns were in the front line facing the guns and tanks of the government. Who would dare kill warriors of God? No one right? That's why there were no violence during EDSA Revolution. People stayed in EDSA until President Marcos came down to position. And when he did, the nation celebrated for regaining back the democracy that everyone deserved, thanks to President Aquino because she led the people to gain back their rights.

Now on her passing, the nation is once again united to celebrate the life President Aquino had. She was very fulfilled for she has done so many things to her family and of course the people of the country. Even struggling with her life, it was her prayer that the nation will be once again united to fight for their rights and the wellness of the country. She's such a wonderful mother to a nation. She always believed that the people still have hope to have a better country. If only people practice their rights truthfully and in the right way there's no doubt that the Philippines will once again rise to the top of every other nation.

With her death, yung pagka nationalistic ko nabuhay. Usually, i don't really care on what's happening on the country. But now that she dead we try to remember and reminisce all the things that the late President Aquino did for the country, my faith in the country is burning again, aching for it's betterment.

And another addition, it was during Cory's time that the Mindanao was at peace. Cory declared some regions in Mindanao as autonomous. She gave freedom to the Muslims. It was through her initiative that the MILF signed a peace treaty with the government. It was because the Muslims believe in her and in Ninoy.

MABUHAY ang PILIPINAS and may our beloved Corazon Aquino rest in peace with our beloved Sen. Benigno "Ninoy" Aquino. WE LOVE YOU PRESIDENT CORAZON AQUINO!

"I would rather die a meaningful death, than live a meaningless life."

"I just do whatever it is that i believe, regardless of the risks to my life."

"As I came to power peacefully, so shall i keep it." - Corazon Aquino

Meet Gin Pineapple and Gin Orange

2009-08-01T21:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, while we were on our community duty (di na kami gi-reject ng community), my group was planning to watch THE PROPOSAL. As usual, ako call ko in everything. Walang problema sa akin. Others were suggesting na mga 7pm na lang daw because may ibang endevours pa silang dapat i-attend. Well, actually so am i. I needed to go to my cousin's 18th birthday pa.

So after the duty, i went straight to my cousin's house. i helped prepare some stuff, buy some things and all with still in my uniform. hahaha! buti na lang walang CI na nakasalubong. (lmao)

Anyway, so ayun. Nag start ang dinner at around 8pm. Then the party started at 8:30. It was just a gathering of some friends and lots of relatives. hahaha! It wasn't your usual typical debut party. ah basta. Before the party and the dinner, i was already asking Abby and Rikka kung tuloy yung plano. Of course hindi. Di naman pinayagan si Rikka mag labas ng bahay kasi she's babysitting her little sister, Pupay. So they made another plan. Why not mag shot na lang ta sa bahay nila Rikka? That was their plan. Of course. Being the always-GO!-guy, OK lang sa akin.

At around 9pm, grabe na text sa akin ni Rikka kung san na daw ako and all kasi si Luis pa lang daw ang nasa bahay nila. hahahaha!! So ayun, nagpaalam na ako sa mga tita ko pati sa mommy ko na aalis ako. Ginawa ko na excuse eh, mag CP kami. hahaha!!!

Medyo sabay sabay na rin kmi ni Abby nagdating sa bahay nila Rikka. Pero ako, i stayed a little longer outside. Hahaha! i was playing. Texted them i wasn't coming, na di pumayag parents ko. I was laughing the whole time when i did that. LMAO.

So ayun, lumabas si Rikka and found me. Ah basta. To make the long story short.

Kami lang apat ang andun. Rikka desperately tried calling some of her friends, I tried calling Johanna pero she was sleeping, Abby tried to call some of her friends too and Luis did nothing. Just sat there like a lost kid trying to look around. LMAO

So after nun, bumili na lang kami ni Luis ng drinks sa malapit na convenience store. The first plan was TAGAKA (that's the Filipino style of Bailey's) but then, since Abby doesn't want Tanduay, nag Gin na lang mi. and bought some chips too.

Of course, since ako expert daw ana, ako nag volunteer mag timpla. Just to make sure lang, I called up Miko and asked him how to make gin pineapple. So ayun, may assurance na ako.

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

dun na nag start ang mga kabuang.

After almost finishing the pitcher of Gin Pineapple, dumating si Opep. Isa sa classmates namin. Buti naman at nakasunod siya. Nagpabili na rin ako kay Luis ng another round of Gin. So ayun. After a few minutes na naman, dumating si Kris or Chris Mendoza. Ummm... Last I've heard, suitor ni Rikka. Maybe I'm wrong. hahaha! Chris is my classmate in first year english. Kaya medyo kilala ko na siya. So ayun, grabe usap usap. Then another round.

Lasing na kami nila Rikka, Chris, Opep and Abby. Of course, the good boy Luis stayed sober the whole time. Kaya sila dalawa tinitira ko. Abby and Luis. Hahaha! :D

I love saying Abby and Luis. hahaha!

At around 3am, nagsi uwian na kami kasi lasing na kami. I couldn't walk straight na. I couldn't think straight na. Good thing pagdating ko ng bahay si Klyde nag bukas ng gate. hahaha!. still it's ABBY and LUIS! LMAO

Have You Tried Zip-ing?

2009-07-30T18:48:00.000-07:00

Ako wala pa. Pero I wanna try it. I'm interested in learning it coz it looks interesting. :D

The only problem is i have no idea where to buy Poi-s here in Davao.

Anyway, a little information about zip-ing. I kind of researched it on the internet.

courtesy of Planetzips.com

Zips were inspired by the Maori's of New Zealand who had dance known as poi (translated to "rock on strings") spinning. The maori's use this dance for battles and also for women to attract a partner.

more information on Planetzips.com

you guys should check out the site. It's cool. :D

Basta. Bibili ako ng isang pair ng poi kahit na gagasto ako ng malaki. lmao.

di naman gaano kalaki. siguro bubudgetan ko lang ng mga 1k yan. :D

Feel ko kasi maganda ang feeling pag nakaperform ka na with those. hahaha! ganda kasi tingnan.

LOST COMMUNITY

2009-07-30T07:21:00.000-07:00

Maski sa community, kailangan naa'y picture

para complete ang experience

Hahahaha! Today is a funny day. Today was, well supposed to be, our first 3rd year community duty. We were assigned, according to our clinical instructors, at Catalunan Pequeno. We were told to wait at Roxas gate at 7:30am and we will leave at 8am.

8am came. We left the school and went to our destination. First stop was at Puan. I have no idea where or what name of that place in Puan we stopped. All I'm certain is it's near the entrance. We stayed there for like 30-45 mins. Some were taking their breakfast there (Burger, Chips, Junks) and Some (including me) stayed inside the jeep. It was too hot to go outside the jeep. After Puan, next stop was a public school in Catalunan Pequeno. It was the Catalunan Pequeno National High School (or something like that). We took a break there. About 45 mins I think. At 11, we proceeded to our supposed respective communities, but when we got there, there were no Purok leaders present (or maybe nagtatago because they don't wanna see nurses anymore. Especially student nurses. hahaha!) REJECTED mi sa COMMUNITY!

Since there were no purok leaders, we went to the public health center.

Feeling ko rejected na sad mi. We were instructed to take our lunch na lang. sa jeep!

Sila kumain. ako hindi. Can't eat in conditions such as nakaupo ka lang sa luob ng jeep. No no no thanks. Siguro kung outing yun na papunta sa beach OK pa sa akin kumain. pero yun hindi. DUTY un eh!! DUTY!!!!! Abog pa jud kaau. Hala! Sige. Siguro 10mins after nila sumubo ng first bite nila, Sir Linaw announced na we're going back to school to have our return demo na lang. Hahahaha! REJECTED jud mi sa COMMUNITY!!! COMMUNITY LOST!

Feel namo nag joy ride lang mi sa mintal. Gi pagasto lang ug 70php.

So let's start again:

SCHOOL

PUAN

CATALUNAN PEQUENO NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL

SUPPOSED COMMUNITY

HEALTH CENTER

SCHOOL

Pag dating sa school, break na naman. LUNCH BREAK. I didn't eat my lunch na lang kasi nakakawalang gana. Ang dumi ko na. Lagkit ng feeling. Feel ko ang baho ko. Malas ko pa talaga kasi nung nasa Puan pa lang kami, i stepped on my hanky. kaya wala akong hanky. Nag tiis ako sa pakamay kamay lang ng pagpunas sa aking malalaking pawis. Nung 1:30pm na. Nag RD na kami until 4pm. I got the lowest score from Maam Perucho. pero OK lang coz still. mataas pa rin na lowest score yun. :D

I should have answered well dun sa questions nya. bushet!! hahaha! :D

eto oh. mga pictures namin sa loob ng jeep. enjoy!

I'm too tired to think

2009-07-28T01:41:00.001-07:00

I'm so tired! I need a break... I need a long long break!

I'm so wishing for just a 3 day vacation. I wanna go back to San Fran and unwind.

Or maybe just a massage. a WHOLE BODY massage! That'd be nice. Hmmmm.

Too bad i don't have the money yet for that. How much does a massage cost nowadays?

Anyway, my weights been really good lately. I haven't been gaining. I'm losing weight which is really nice. A few more savings and I'll be hitting the gym again.

Can't wait to reach 160lbs! Lmao! Need to work hard for it.

Ugh! Too many things to do. We still have to edit our case study which will be due on Saturday next week. And on Thursday we'll be starting to have our community duty. Which i'm so not excited about. I never liked community duties. I don't like walking under the sun. Ako na nga lang ang maitim sa pamilya namin, iitim pa ako lalo dahil sa init ng araw when we do our community. Puchaks!

Ah basta. Ang nasa isip ko lang ngaun eh magpapayat at pahinga. Ibigay lang sa akin ni lord yan OK na. Tsaka pala iPod Touch. hahaha! Soon. Malapit na talaga ang iPod Touch. Excited na nga ako. pero naguguluhan ako. iPod touch o iPod Nano 4th gen?

Maganda din kasi yung Nano 4th gen.... 16gb pa!

Ay... bukas ko na isipin yan. As of now, 5pm. matutulog muna ako kasi nahuhulog na ang mata ko. and besides, my laptop needs some rest. Yoko siya ma stress gaya ng boss nya. para naman matagal masira. :D

P.S. ----> My food blog needs updating. Kailangan ko na makakain sa isang masarap na lugar para may mailagay na naman ako dun. :D

No Diet for Today

2009-07-26T07:05:00.000-07:00

The Birthday Celebrant

Today was my sister's 13th birthday and the family's complete coz dad came yesterday from Cebu (or from Manila). I'm not sure. Important is he came.

Anyway, today wasn't so special. I just greeted my sister happy birthday over breakfast. She wasn't very enthusiastic about it since dad was using the computer and she wants to use the computer as well.

At around 12nn, I was trying to understand my freakin' take-home Philosophy exam, our 'kasambahay', Amor, knocked on my door, telling me to go take a bath coz the family's going out to lunch. Badtrip pa kasi there's no water until 5pm today. I took a bath sa likod-bahay. Sa may washing machine namin.

Ate was driving. Of course, guided by my very enthusiastic mom and dad. Actually, they didn't have a plan aside from eating out. pero they don't know where. We decided when we were already in bandang Ulas. Pero we get to agree na sa Bigby's sa may bandang Centerpoint Plaza Mall na. So yeah. We decided to have lunch at Bigby's and as per wish by the birthday 'celebrator'.

Pag sabi pa lang ng Bigby's, medyo kinabahan na ako. Bigby's is a very very fine place to dine. You get to eat a lot of good stuff from them. I'm on a diet kaya medyo anxious ako. Kasi I've been controlling my food intake for almost 4 weeks na and all of a sudden pwede siyang masira just with one meal (well, 2 meals actually).

Bigby's Cafe and Restaurant

Torres St. Davao City

There are 2 Bigby's branches here in Davao. One is in SM and the other one is at Torres St. We went to Torres St. coz my sister thinks it's more 'sosyal' there to eat than in SM. Besides, it was like my sister's (Kim's) 2nd time to wear a dress.

When we got there, the place was jam-packed with people. Mostly kids. May nag celebrate din ng birthday dun.

Lunch at Bigby's was really fun. Especially because bonding jud mi as family. We were laughing, talking and all that jazz. :D Kim even had a birthday song from the Bigby's staff which was really fun watch. I had it in video. Will be posting it as soon as i figure out how. (lmao)

I had Grilled Rodeo Chops. Hahaha! I knew it right then i'll be eating a lot for today. (I'll be starting a food blog after this post. I'll post everything that we ate today. :D You might be interested. :D)

From Full Plate to Empty Plate

After Bigby's, Dad wants to try desserts. Ate suggested Lachi's. But before leaving Bigby's premises, we have to have our pictures taken. lol. When you have a dad who loves taking pictures, me with my passion on photography and siblings who loves to pose then it boils down to PICTURE TAKING!!! :D Lots and lots of pictures taking. Lmao.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

So after the small photo shoot, we went to Lachi's still with Ate driving. Unfortunately, Lachi's is closed on Sunday. Too bad. They have a variety of sweet, very delicious cakes and other pastries. So instead, we went to Cybergate Robinsons to look for a coffee shop and buy groceries.

After Robinsons, we went to NCCC for more groceries. Yeah. With dad around, we get to have lots and lots of groceries. I dunno why. lmao. But mom still tries to be strict on the budget. My mom will never change. After NCCC, we went to church.

I'm thankful we went to church. I get to thank God for all the blessings that he has showered upon me for the past few weeks. Hahaha! I know. I'll be expecting for opposite of it for the next few days. I believe in whenever you get something good, expect something bad. LMAO

Case Presentation

2009-07-25T05:02:00.000-07:00

This is it. Today was the day to defend our case study: Hirschprung's Disease.

As i've said in my previous post, i did the powerpoint for the presentation. Well, i did most of it. Though Johanna made the first few slides.

Anyway, this morning, sobra ka-kulba. La ko nag expect nga makulbaan ko kay feel pud gud daw nako nga kabalo na ko sa akong report. pero SHIT!

Katong 5minutes almost na lang medyo nanggawas ang mga nerves nako kay basin di namo matarong among case presentation kay basin makalimot mi. Lucky we have Maam Apple as our panelist so medyo di kaau terror.

Si Luis una nag report kay iya man ang acknowledgement ug ang introduction. Apil na ang mga patient's data. then sunod sunod na. Ako nag report sa genogram as request by Abby coz she was still trying to figure out the doctor's order. So nung first parts, medyo smooth sailing ang presentation because everyone was still in a very good mood. Morning pa kasi so everyone's not stressed pa. Pero nung medyo hapon na. siguro after lunch, maam apple medyo cranky na siya. Malas pa kasi si Abby ang tinamaan. Sa doctor's order. Hahai. Speaking of, diba in my last post sinabi ko i stayed the whole night for the freakin' powerpoint? Medyo natagalan ako kasi sa doctor's order ang haba. Then dun kanina sa presentation, shet! yung JULY lang ang pina report!!!!!!!! sayang effort ko.

so ayun, conclusion is. madami kaming mali sa CP namin. pero we still got good grades.

i got the highest and i'm proud of it. 95.8%

Napansin ko lang. Ako, Luis and Amir naka line of 9 sa grading sa reporting while the girls only got line of 8. Hmmmm.... Crush siguro kami ni maam. hahaha! :D

So after the CP, we decided we go to PICOBELLO.

At last, nangyari na din ang plinano namin. Kasi plano dapat yan nung Thursday eh medyo cranky ang mga tao so di na lang tinuloy. It was really fun. haha!

bonding moments with groupmates. the first bonding moments with groupmates.

hoping for more i guess.

PICTURES FROM TODAY

Above Pics: Pizza; Abby with Pizza

Below Pics: Bonita and Rikka with Pizza ; Johanna and DD

Wala'y pichurs mi ni Leh kay naulaw si Leh magpapichur tapos ako man ang photographer so sa likod sa camera lang jud ko. hahaha

Torture sa Powerpoint

2009-07-25T04:45:00.000-07:00

Whew! A few days ago, nag volunteer ko together with Johanna to make the powerpoint for the CP. I was thinking it would be easy. But no oh no. Yesterday, Friday, July 25, 2009, we met up at gazeebo ateneo. We were suppose to discuss about the case presentation but of course as usual, it didn't happen. Instead, we were just talking, having fun, and not really paying attention to the CP. Besides, di naman din lahat nag punta so what's the use. So anyway, after lunch, naiwan kami ni Joh kasama si DD para gumawa ng powerpoint. Joh started the powerpoint then i volunteered to finish it.

At around 4:30pm, we decided to call it a day. Nagsiuwian na kami kasi sobrang pagod na ako. Feeling ko sobrang himbing ng tulog ko sa jeep. Kasi the jeepney ride took almost an hour and a half bago nakarating sa village na tinitirahan ko. Badtrip pa talaga coz it rained so hard. I was worried na baka mabasa ang "BAGO" kong laptop. hahaha! Sorry. proud sa bagong laptop. mawawala lang din pagkaproud ko soon. so wag na kau mag alala. Back to the topic, nung pagdating ko ng bahay ginawa ko na naman ang powerpoint. From that point on, na feel ko na ang sobrang pagod at stress. I had chills. Sobrang lamig! I almost got a fever. yeah. almost lang. sayang. I did the powerpoint till around 2am. Since I can't go on anymore, i decided to call it a night and set my cellphone's alarm to 4am to do the powerpoint again.

As planned, my phone rang at 4am. I was reluctant to wake up pero i remembered that i still have to finish the powerpoint for today's case defense. the doctor's order took almost all my time. sobrang haba ng doctor's order. tapos may NCP pa and all.

at around 5:30, i decided to quit and get ready for the day. Pumunta na ako ng school at around 6:30 para tapusin na ang powerpoint. and then...... NEXT BLOG ENTRY!!!!! :D

Lesson Learned:

Basta, next time, yoko na mag volunteer na gumawa ng Powerpoint. ayoko na makafeel ng sobrang pagod dahil lang jan. I will let my other groupmates work.

MY LAPTOP

2009-07-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

Finally! I got my laptop today. I've been wanting one since i started college. Laptop is an essential gadget for nursing students and student nurses a like. We use the laptop for projects, case presentations, research and almost anything else.

My laptop is a HP Compaq Presario CQ40-336TU. It's not really what I wanted coz I want the HP Pavillion. Pero since eto lang makayanan ng budget namin. I'm satisfied. It's nice. It doesn't have the same softwares as those of an ACER kasi wala yung mga digital clocks, side notes and stuff. But it has a webcam, 250GB memory, 1GB RAM, Intel Dual Core, a built-in card reader, 3 USB ports, DVD player. hahai.

Pero wala siya MICROSOFT OFFICE 2007. Actually meron siya pero trial lang. only for 60days.

I need to have it installed yung long lasting. hahaha! Well, i haven't explored much sa aking laptop. naninibago pa ako sa fact na it's mine na talaga. ahihihi.

di na ako mahirapan during projects and stuff. all i need now is a 3gig USB and an Apple I-Touch!

Group 2E BSN 3E July 22, 2009

2009-07-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

Today was another fun-filled day. Tiring but still fun.

I woke up at around 6:30am for i don't know reason. Maybe I'm just so used to waking up early because of well, early schedules i guess. Anyway, the computer was vacant so I used it and browsed and updated my as usual, FACEBOOK. Facebook is part of my daily routine. I know it's weird, but hahaha! everyone's hooked. Anyway, back to the topic. At around 7am, a chat popped up. It was my clinical instructor telling me to go back to sleep coz it's still to early for a no-school day. I told her I can't coz I'll be meeting my group (for CP) later.

I really hate Wednesdays. Why? Coz it's hard for me to choose an outfit. You see, I'm not really the fashion type of guy. My body figure just doesn't coinsided with the "cool, trendy" looks. So I went to school wearing my usual, black polo shirt, my so-big pants, and my crocs.

When i got to school, found them at the Gazeebo. Was really happy to see the site of those people i really wanna see for the day. I wish i could see them every minute of my entire life. That'd be really really fun for me. :D

Anyway, so we continued finishing our Case Presentation for Saturday. We need to pass the output tomorrow, Thursday, to our Clinical Instructor. We only needed to finish the Doctor's Order and the Nursing Care Plan. Everything's done except for those 2 parts. Well, they say those are the most important things in a Nursing Case Presentation.

So anyways, as everyone got bored, Rikka borrowed my phone and used it to take shots of everybody. CANDID SHOTS! Looking at those pictures made us all really laugh. Well, almost all. Hahaha! I won't name those people who, well, too serious in their lives that they forgot what fun means. lol. Well at least during that moment. hahaha!

We finished the CP at around 3:30pm. Everyone hasn't taken their lunch yet and some people were already complaining of hunger. lol. i was planning on a hunger strike for the day. We were planning though to go to Picobello's but it never pushed forward because people had other plans. hahaha! i was hoping i'd get to spend more time with those "certain people"

Well, anyway, i went to SM after. Went to see a movie. Harry Potter 6 which is really disappointing. the movie is, and will be the most boring harry potter movie i've ever seen. it's so far away from the book. I was expecting action / fight scenes but there were none. hahaha! all the stuff you'd see in the movie is all mushy mushy lovey dovey shit. I don't recommend you guys watching. I'm disappointed with the director. He's an asshole.

Anyway, earlier, i was planning on a hunger strike aka DIET. I only ate a cup of corn (rich in fiber, tell you) and a glass of PINEAPPLE juice (which is rich in fiber and also anti-oxidants). I thought those were enough.

When i got home, i smell this very familiar smell. CHICKEN ADOBO! Who can fuckin' resist adobo? huh?! Tell me?! So i tried a little bite. Then another. and then another. until i opened my plate, took a large spoon full of rice and ate adobo! i feel really guilty for eating so much tonight. I need to have an exercise tomorrow. besides, no class until Friday!

The Torture....and FUN of CP

2009-07-21T16:29:00.000-07:00

Hahaha!! Kahit gaano ka-torture ang CP, masaya pa rin. Kahit init na ulo ng mga tao, we still try to have fun para di kami mabuang sa requirements. Only 2 of my groupmates own a laptop. Yung isa, di pa talaga palagi pinapadala kasi sa mommy nya. So most of the time we only use one laptop. Hahahaha! no wonder until now we're not finished with the CP. Stressed out na kami lahat. Drained na. Restless. Kulang sa tulog lagi.

Pero kahit na halos mabuang na kami kakaproblema sa CP namin, i thank god for groupmates (and friends) na super wacky. These people help us di mabuang. well, even though mga ginagawa namin together is mga kabuang lang din. it's keeping us sane. Sa few weeks namin magkasama, close na kami maxado. Hahaha! That's the best part in CP. we're much closer than the first day we met. lol. Loveteams are even formed. Ties get even stronger. Basta, I'm glad i belong to this group. Pero guys next time, let's try to do our CP earlier para di na ta ma-stress and we could rest early.

ACKNOWLEDGEMENT

Rikka - thanks so much for being such a good leader.

kahit na pagod na tayo lahat, you still try to keep your cool. tsaka you could still afford to crack a joke especially when all of us are bummed na. And even though sometimes super kiat ka, you know how and when to be so responsible.

Abigail - thanks for being such a wacky girl. hahaha! you always keep us smiling kasi you're always smiling. (Bakit kaya? hahaha!)

Johanna - thanks for the inspiration (char!) di bitaw. thanks for the laughs and moments.

Luis - thanks for being the inspiration sa pag papapayat ko ngaun. hahaha!!! idol ka talaga ng lahat!

Mikka - Ikaw talaga ang batas!! The group won't be as fun and determined if you weren't there. hahaha!!!!

Deedee - Salamat sa mga stories. nag co-compare compare na tau. hahaha! :D

Amir - pagtarung tarung ba. hahaha! joke ra mir. hahaha!

Angelica - Thanks sa papaya na pinakain mo sa akin sa bahay nyo. masarap gud yun. :P

Bonita - You're the best. Grabe! Bunso!!!! You're one crazy girl who keeps us from getting crazy! hahaha!!!